Tired

[letticelover]

Well work today was long, it was good.  I like spending time away from home, that way you learn to appreciate what you come home to.  Sadly, tonight is just one of those nights.  I talked to my dad today, something I do now very often and I enjoy it.  In return he's learned to talk to me more often as well, and this time around he decided he wants to have me come to Florida for two weeks.  To spend some summer time with dad and finally go to the beach when the water is warm enough to swim.  I don't know exactly why, but well.. I called my mom, asked her if she was okay with it, or if she needed me to only take a week off.  Her response was that I have my own life and I should do with it as I please.  That I have no obligation to this family and that I could do whatever I pleased.  For those of you that know my mother and my situation, the entire thing wasn't too kosher, but I took her at her word just to prove that what I was doing was being kind and if she wanted me to act my own life without even telling her then that was fine.

So I called my dad back and told him that two weeks was fine, I would spend two weeks with him in the end of June.  Well That was all fine, of course until my mother came home.  I smiled and told her hello, in fact later in the evening I came out of my room just to tell her her that I love her.  I do, just because she frustrates me doesn't mean that I don't and even my brother can tell you that one.  But still she just looked up at me and told me she doesn't think so.  All she needs to know is god loves her.  I can go the hell away and frolic in Florida or live in my own apartment, or whatever the hell I wanted.

All I can say tonight, is that I can't wait to go back to work.