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[lettherebelips]

wow, it's been too fucking long since i last wrote in here. i got grounded from my fucking computer for no fucking reason, and i'm 18.. wow, am i a loser, a poster child for "just say 'no'", even now i can see the reprecussions of my lifestyle, but still have not yet come to realize that "it isn't worth it" as some may say... maybe it's just because i'm extremely high, maybe not... anyways, mike and casey are playing need for speed most wanted, andd i fucking hate watching them play vidio games! well, i guess it's not too bad, because i get to catch up in here, to whoever the fuck reads this shit. mike and i are doing very well, he's going to school at dadc, i've dropped out and am going to take my GED pretty soon. i'm on this new drug called welbutrin, it's nice, but i have to stop taking it at least 48 hrs before i smoke shit, or else i can't get high. i can't even get a nicotien buzz.. so i hardly smoke anymroe. though it helps so much with the flaws of my brain i still cannot get the nerve to get things done... i guess i just need a little money, which is in the mail from my grandparents. wow... i am totally lost for words... operhaps a poem is in order, because i can write petry like this i think.

there's so much sound swingin' round my ears
and though the silence never hears
a creak and a pop above my head
as i'm curl'd beniether the bed
footsteps 'click click' so loud the sound
with my lips my mouth is bound
each and every foot step
each and every bump
mistaken by the upstairs thump
with doe eyes he greet me
this i've been waiting for
underniether he looks to see
'hunny it's fine'
and i really don't mind
waiting for hours in discomfort
his heart is mine
and he holds me with arms so warm and tight
elated the he is with me tonoght
sweet kisses on my lips
head resting on his chest
these are the moments that i lvoe best
we are so old yet so young at the same
so much wisdom tween' of our brains
though we're children, just the same

(a work in progress)