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so I cried... I don't know why, I just kept telling myself I was crying for different people... I haven't cried in a long time... I'd like to tell you all that it felt great, so much better than cutting, but then I'd be lying... I don't like this, I really don't... I want to stop letting other people worry about me, then again I'm pretty sure most people have stopped... *sighs* I don't know I've thought about killing myself a lot more lately... I'd like to just be able to end it all... It's little things now that set me off to want to cut, tiny everyday things... It's ridiculous! I'm not in control of my feelings anymore... I don't think we ever are in control... I feel slightly sick to my stomach...
I'll shake it off, I always do...
I'll shake it off, I always do...