When you sat there....

[letterstomy]

Did i let you down again? Was it you who I disappointed again? I'm sorry that I never lived up your high hopes. I'm never gona be the one holding your head when you cry. When I saw you there across the table, falling apart, hands folded together, lips tensed up, eyes filled with tears - all I wanted to do was to hold you close. You never cared that at that very time I was falling to pieces. My heart burning into my flesh, my mouth getting dry, feelings leaveing me senselss. You selfishly continued to torture me, never realizing how much it hurt. You never asked. It was all about you , just like it always is. I don't matter. You can torture me, bringing him back by each song, by each breath....not letting me be. He'll hung from my ceilings tonight blaming for all of my mistakes, touching me the way he did, his lips on my closed lips, he'll be back tonight. But it will not matter, it's all about you. I hate to see you hurt, I can tolerate everything even him, if only it could make everything go away for you. All I cared for was you, never said I was hurting too, never I will let you know how much.
I couldn't help not to cry when you left. I'm tired now.

Elisexxx