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So I was uncharacteristically enthused about starting a new year (arbitrary calendars, bah humbug, etc). And I had this thought last night: I hope I look back at the end of this year and see that I've accomplished a lot*. And then I realized that at this time next year, I won't be looking back at the previous year, I'll instead be looking forward to the year ahead and hoping that I will look back with approval at the same time the subsequent year.
Damn future selves. There's no pleasing them.
*ART!
THERE HAS TO BE ART!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And lots of it!!!!!!!!!!
2012, though, was quite a year, I guess.
- winter: made a goal to read 30 science books. I think I read... 5. and then wandered right off that goal. But that's ok, 'cause I was REALLY EXCITED about it while I read those 5 books, so it served a big part of its purpose.
- spring: spent two weeks driving across the country, down the california coast, and back across the country with James.
- late spring: went to the beach with James and his family.
- summer: moved in with James. It took me four or five months to feel at all normal and get over some of the oppressive expectations I had on myself to be a good pseudo-wifey. So it's very, very good now... but was difficult at first.
- summer: and we adopted two cats!!! <3 <3 <3
- fall: recruitment was dead on the research studies that I facilitate, and then picked up at the end of Nov and through December, making my worklife crazy.stress.hell. (as opposed to crazys.très.shell)
- fall & winter: I knitted a TON and made a spreadsheet to organize my projects, which made me a lot more productive (better at FINISHING STUFF). Gearing up to open an etsy shop. I'm hoping that will be included in next year's updates, assuming I bother to reflect on the year.
- winter again: I seemed to have some seasonal affect and other issues this year, after a few years' reprieve. I thought I was done caring what the sun chooses to do with its time in the winter, especially since I don't have a window in my office. But yeah, guess I was wrong about that, 'cause I experienced a big stress, depression, holidays etc boot to the head.
This sounds complainy. I don't mean it that way. I'd sum it up by saying, a lot of great stuff happened, a lot of which somehow affected me poorly.
So really, no wonder that I was ready to get on with it and start a new year.
I think one of the best things I could do in life is MORE REPRESENTATIONAL DRAWING, because:
- I need practice
- I need Things to make into sculptures and whatnot
- my attempts at representational drawing generate a lot of nonsense, which is creativity-making and sometimes hilarious. And it's good to be off in a room all by yourself laughing your ass off. Keeps your loved ones guessing.
So I ended the day yesterday by doodling, and then dreamed I was writing a graphic novel and had pages and pages of draft drawings. Excellent!
doodily doodily doo:
This was random, but the more I looked at it, the more I realized that it's a picture of exactly what I want to do in the upcoming year... take some damn happyquiet time to ascend to the tower of my mind/creativity.
Damn future selves. There's no pleasing them.
*ART!
THERE HAS TO BE ART!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And lots of it!!!!!!!!!!
2012, though, was quite a year, I guess.
- winter: made a goal to read 30 science books. I think I read... 5. and then wandered right off that goal. But that's ok, 'cause I was REALLY EXCITED about it while I read those 5 books, so it served a big part of its purpose.
- spring: spent two weeks driving across the country, down the california coast, and back across the country with James.
- late spring: went to the beach with James and his family.
- summer: moved in with James. It took me four or five months to feel at all normal and get over some of the oppressive expectations I had on myself to be a good pseudo-wifey. So it's very, very good now... but was difficult at first.
- summer: and we adopted two cats!!! <3 <3 <3
- fall: recruitment was dead on the research studies that I facilitate, and then picked up at the end of Nov and through December, making my worklife crazy.stress.hell. (as opposed to crazys.très.shell)
- fall & winter: I knitted a TON and made a spreadsheet to organize my projects, which made me a lot more productive (better at FINISHING STUFF). Gearing up to open an etsy shop. I'm hoping that will be included in next year's updates, assuming I bother to reflect on the year.
- winter again: I seemed to have some seasonal affect and other issues this year, after a few years' reprieve. I thought I was done caring what the sun chooses to do with its time in the winter, especially since I don't have a window in my office. But yeah, guess I was wrong about that, 'cause I experienced a big stress, depression, holidays etc boot to the head.
This sounds complainy. I don't mean it that way. I'd sum it up by saying, a lot of great stuff happened, a lot of which somehow affected me poorly.
So really, no wonder that I was ready to get on with it and start a new year.
I think one of the best things I could do in life is MORE REPRESENTATIONAL DRAWING, because:
- I need practice
- I need Things to make into sculptures and whatnot
- my attempts at representational drawing generate a lot of nonsense, which is creativity-making and sometimes hilarious. And it's good to be off in a room all by yourself laughing your ass off. Keeps your loved ones guessing.
So I ended the day yesterday by doodling, and then dreamed I was writing a graphic novel and had pages and pages of draft drawings. Excellent!
doodily doodily doo:
This was random, but the more I looked at it, the more I realized that it's a picture of exactly what I want to do in the upcoming year... take some damn happyquiet time to ascend to the tower of my mind/creativity.