good news?
smoke and lies: im letting it go. no matter how weak i seem by doing this, im letting it. i know you wont care and thats okay cause im used to it. its just stupid how im doing this. a friend made me realize i make myself misreable because i make everything seem like its my fault but then i just go and blame everyone else for everything. also im sorry for stepping on the back of your shoe today on the way to first hour. you werent going fast enough and people were in my way.
snugglesSHOTme: haha its fine
snugglesSHOTme: was that the sweet revenge u needed? stepping on my shoe?
snugglesSHOTme: hahahaha
smoke and lies: no, sweet revenge would have been punching you in the face, pushing you down the stairs and kicking you in the stomach....which i almost did monday.
snugglesSHOTme: haha
snugglesSHOTme: when i did nothing
snugglesSHOTme: to you
snugglesSHOTme: what so ever
smoke and lies: there has been things, but you are mostly right. i mean i know im psycho and i think i get that from my mom. im sorry i flip out all the time. i have major mood swings and need to go on medication for it. but you just dont understand sometimes. i wish i could tell you, but it wouldnt matter in the first place.
im not making mike to seem like a dick in this, though he can be. derek said id feel better if i got something that big off my chest. i guess i do feel better, but after i got done saying it all i busted into a blubbering baby.
moke and lies: because... i mean everything in my house was going horrible and then mike....well he added on to it. but apparently he thinks he never does anything to me.
InsideMyPlague: well, he never does. you put all this pressure on yourself and then you blame others, i'm sorry if this sounds horrible but it's what i think, and please tell me if i'm going to far, and i still don't want to see you hurt or anything but i thought i had to tell you this
derek's only right also.
im sorry im psycho.
In this situtation, everyone wins expect for me....
....and I'm okay with that.
Farwell with my "new attitude".
xBlackxRosesx140: "when I did nothing to you what so ever" thats a bunch of fucking bullshit. Fucking you over, maybe. He only fucked you over a million times and caused you to hurt yourself but nothing else. Asshole >:o
smoke and lies: oh well
xBlackxRosesx140: Oh my fucking god
xBlackxRosesx140: Your taking him back. I knew this would happen
smoke and lies: no im not!
xBlackxRosesx140: Yes you are! Your going to
smoke and lies: i am not!
xBlackxRosesx140: I meant what I said Jynna. If you take him back i'm not talking to you for the rest of the school year
just memorize me like im a fucking song.