Dear Self,
I'm sick of the lazy bullshit. I'm sick of the unrequited words that haunt me in my sleep, I'm sick of the worthless fears that tear me to shit and I'm sick of the oh-so predicible life I've let you fall into. You are worth it no matter what happens. No matter what he says or what anybody says life is for living and loving, laughter, memories, emotions and the bonds between everybody. That's what is worth living for. It's all going to change soon. You'll get to start over again.
With that out of the way, dear self, it's okay to be gay. I know it's been a long, hard road but it's something that has been very open to acceptance. All it takes is that step into the world. Bring all that you may cruel world, because I'm happy and I'm okay and that's all that matters. I'm alive and living and working as hard as I can. I shouldn't ever be settling for less. That leaves room for idleness. Clear out the spiderwebs, kill the spiders and prepare for the storm.
Honestly, I want someone to hold. I want kisses and hugs. But if that's not in my cards I gotta take my shit and keep moving on. I am all I got in the end. I don't want to ruin that. I'll be all that I've ever wanted to be and more. I'll be me and I'll be okay with it. From then, I think I deserve to love. I deserve to care and feel. I know I'll always be a mess but for christs sake I have to clean up.
god knows I can clean up damn well. and so do i.
so bring what you've got baby cause i'm fully armed and ready to fire.
With that out of the way, dear self, it's okay to be gay. I know it's been a long, hard road but it's something that has been very open to acceptance. All it takes is that step into the world. Bring all that you may cruel world, because I'm happy and I'm okay and that's all that matters. I'm alive and living and working as hard as I can. I shouldn't ever be settling for less. That leaves room for idleness. Clear out the spiderwebs, kill the spiders and prepare for the storm.
Honestly, I want someone to hold. I want kisses and hugs. But if that's not in my cards I gotta take my shit and keep moving on. I am all I got in the end. I don't want to ruin that. I'll be all that I've ever wanted to be and more. I'll be me and I'll be okay with it. From then, I think I deserve to love. I deserve to care and feel. I know I'll always be a mess but for christs sake I have to clean up.
god knows I can clean up damn well. and so do i.
so bring what you've got baby cause i'm fully armed and ready to fire.