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Dear boy who still manages to make it in my dreams,
I guess maybe - probably - I was wrong. I usually am, so it’s not such a strange occurrence as not to be plausible.
The thing is, even if I was, I don’t know if you have an excuse. I guess when someone tells you they’re worth it, you assume that ‘it’ means all of it, not just the time it takes to move on.
So, tell me. Explain to me, please - I’m curious and I’m a perfectionist and if this is something that will continue to happen, if this is gonna be like some little box in my head that won’t just have your name on it, but mine, too, but everybody’s, just tell me what I need to do.
Is it something that I said? Is it the way I tried to make you happy or the way you sometimes were? Is it that I didn’t give enough or that I gave too much, that I let you get used to something you could never have, the same way you tricked me into believing it was something you wanted?
I guess I was wrong. But, to be honest, that doesn’t mean that you were right.
Really wishing I didn’t miss you,
The one who you said might’ve been the end
I guess maybe - probably - I was wrong. I usually am, so it’s not such a strange occurrence as not to be plausible.
The thing is, even if I was, I don’t know if you have an excuse. I guess when someone tells you they’re worth it, you assume that ‘it’ means all of it, not just the time it takes to move on.
So, tell me. Explain to me, please - I’m curious and I’m a perfectionist and if this is something that will continue to happen, if this is gonna be like some little box in my head that won’t just have your name on it, but mine, too, but everybody’s, just tell me what I need to do.
Is it something that I said? Is it the way I tried to make you happy or the way you sometimes were? Is it that I didn’t give enough or that I gave too much, that I let you get used to something you could never have, the same way you tricked me into believing it was something you wanted?
I guess I was wrong. But, to be honest, that doesn’t mean that you were right.
Really wishing I didn’t miss you,
The one who you said might’ve been the end