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Hai:
I've come to some realizations in the past few days...weeks...months...I'm not really sure.
We may be best friends, but we aren't best friends.
I mean, for a while, I thought you and Liv were almost equal in my heart. But recently, I've just noticed...you will never, ever reach that level that I have with Liv. We will never be that close that we could call each other at three in the morning sobbing our eyes out and need to talk to someone. We won't ever do that and I think deep down, you know that too.
Last year, when Liv moved away, I told you how much it hurt, what with everything else that happened that fateful June 19th. It was one of those things it was going to take me a while to get over. And you said you understood. I was hoping that meant you'd be there for me when I needed someone close by.
But...let's be honest, love. You weren't. A few months later you started dating and...we just never saw each other. At school, all you ever talked about was Pete this, and Pete that. Even that day, where all I did was cry because of D'Ann, all you did was "Well, Pete says..."
I'm so happy you found someone you like. Really, it's great. But it just came at a horrid time. I don't know if it's changed you or what, but you aren't the girl I used to believe you were.
Sometimes, you just...aren't there.
And the worst part? Liv lives across the country. Three thousand miles away. You live ten miles down the road.
And I talk to Liv more than you, outside of school.
I try to keep us close, but I'm afraid I'm pushing too hard with no effort coming back from your end. You perked up a little with that thing with Dana, but now that we just mock this situation - you know, look back and laugh at it - you've gone back into "oh, well Pete this and Pete that and...no I can't do this because Pete's coming."
So, you know how we always say we're best friends, almost like sisters? Well, it's in the back of my mind that, when we go off to college and start our adult lives, you'll just be my old high school friend.
And it hurts. A hell of a lot.
I wish I could tell you this. I really, really do. But, you're too passive. I'd tell you this, and probably be near tears, and all you'd say is "oh...okay, well, I'm sorry." and just leave it at that.
I don't know what to do about this anymore.
I guess I'll see you tuesday, then.
~best friend...?
Pete:
That was a dick move. Saying the only weekend Hai could 'hang out' with me was the weekend I just so happened to be out of the state.
She told you this, and you said "Well, that's too bad. Her loss."
I had no choice, darling.
Sometimes, as cool as you are in person (I think...) you're just a jerk.
And secretly, I hope the two of you break up someday.
~your girls "best" friend
Liv:
I miss you far too much.
Please come home soon. Don't be like Zane, and wait like...five years.
~best friend