so follow that tune ....
ahh. this day has been horrible. but very good. well ok here is like that HUGE reason i am depressed and feeling horrible today: im going to school tomorrow, monday, tuesday, wednesday. then thanksgiving, then my last chemo! ( i know exciting). so chemo friday saturday sunday monday and go home tuesday. then tuesday wednesday and thrusday i feel like crap. and the firday after chemo i go to school for part of the day. that friday december 3rd was going to be my last day until early february. well i have an appointment at 8:30 am. and i usually dont get back until about 4. so as in my last day is wednesday unless on thursday december 2 i feel good which i highly doubt. so i am very mad. and quite sad. and i only get to come home on weekends when i am in seattle and my mom said i probably wont be able to go home every single weekend. so i am pissed. i am beyond pissed there isnt a word for how mad i am. ugh! i am just freaking out right now. and i havent done like any of my homework from the past two weeks. man. this is so frustrating.
the only reason my day has been very good is because i got to come home...when i am on raidiation i think i am gonna be depressed. i hate the ronald mcdonald house. i mean all the kids there are younger than me except one kid, but he's kinda cranky, or he just doesnt like me. hmm.. and then their is this girl carryn she's really nice and i hang out with her sometimes. but she's 11. i mean. i actually want to hang out with people who are my age who dont freak out when i say "piss" or "crap" honestly... its kinda irritating..
the only reason my day has been very good is because i got to come home...when i am on raidiation i think i am gonna be depressed. i hate the ronald mcdonald house. i mean all the kids there are younger than me except one kid, but he's kinda cranky, or he just doesnt like me. hmm.. and then their is this girl carryn she's really nice and i hang out with her sometimes. but she's 11. i mean. i actually want to hang out with people who are my age who dont freak out when i say "piss" or "crap" honestly... its kinda irritating..