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so i started school last thursday. its not as badd as i thought it was going to be. then again, they turned the entire school into a "concentration camp" now, so it's hard to get away with anything. almost like, all us students are the Jews and Mr. Delong is stuck playing the role of Hitler.
oh well, school seems like its going to suck again this year. im sick of all the stupid freshman girls walking by and pointing at me saying things like "look, that boys wearing girl pants", or "hey, why does that kid have girl pants on? he's a boy, not a girl." a lot of the people think im G-A-Y, when really, i'm not. im just trying to do something different than everyone else, and be an individual for once.
who ever said following the crowd was bound to get you somewhere anyways? because what happens if that "crowd" of people fuck up, and fall into a ditch and crash and die. your going right down with them. i could care a fuck less what people think of me for wearing women's jeans. im just not like them - so i guess they have reason to complain. after all, im not sporting a "XXL Moo-Moo" RockaWear t-shirt, and not wearing jeans that are wider than Anna Nicole herself. it's ridiculous.
so i have this one girl in my head, that i've been thinking a lot about lately - but it always seems that i get fucked in the end, no matter who i seem to like. i think just what i need to do, is give this whole "girl" thing a rest, and try to focus more on other things - like singing, and writing, and school, and friends. im not too sure.
...maybe she'll end up coming around one day? i feel so obligated to just walk up to her in school and tell her everything i'm thinking - everything i'm feeling. atleast then i can get it all cleared out of my body. but that will only fuck things up worse i'm sure. maybe if i tell her - it will just be our own little secret. as they say - "secrets dont make friends", whatever the fuck that means. i dont know, its some From First to Last song... : )
oh well, school seems like its going to suck again this year. im sick of all the stupid freshman girls walking by and pointing at me saying things like "look, that boys wearing girl pants", or "hey, why does that kid have girl pants on? he's a boy, not a girl." a lot of the people think im G-A-Y, when really, i'm not. im just trying to do something different than everyone else, and be an individual for once.
who ever said following the crowd was bound to get you somewhere anyways? because what happens if that "crowd" of people fuck up, and fall into a ditch and crash and die. your going right down with them. i could care a fuck less what people think of me for wearing women's jeans. im just not like them - so i guess they have reason to complain. after all, im not sporting a "XXL Moo-Moo" RockaWear t-shirt, and not wearing jeans that are wider than Anna Nicole herself. it's ridiculous.
so i have this one girl in my head, that i've been thinking a lot about lately - but it always seems that i get fucked in the end, no matter who i seem to like. i think just what i need to do, is give this whole "girl" thing a rest, and try to focus more on other things - like singing, and writing, and school, and friends. im not too sure.
...maybe she'll end up coming around one day? i feel so obligated to just walk up to her in school and tell her everything i'm thinking - everything i'm feeling. atleast then i can get it all cleared out of my body. but that will only fuck things up worse i'm sure. maybe if i tell her - it will just be our own little secret. as they say - "secrets dont make friends", whatever the fuck that means. i dont know, its some From First to Last song... : )