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the ONE thing in my life that i knew i was good at.. That i rarely doubted myself...that i felt confident about..something you could never take away from me..is now one of the hardest things to feel confident about anymore.
There is always going to be someone better then you at things, sure. But I felt like dancing was something that I was good at. not the best, but i excelled at it.
now.. i don't feel that anymore... this dance company is killing me.. and my confidence is back at 2% instead of 98%...i was soo excited to be apart of this company, but i now feel like i've lost everything i've ever put into dancing.. i feel like the little awkward kid who doesn't really know what's going on..
What is the one thing i'm good at in life... noting anymore.
Today at church, our pastor was talking about the special gifts that God has given each of us.... goodness.. i don't even know what mine is IF i have one. i don't feel i do. maybe he forgot me or something?
i guess i'm frustrated at the fact that i do not excel at any one thing. Great, that makes my life and career easy to plan out.
just needed to rant.
the end.
There is always going to be someone better then you at things, sure. But I felt like dancing was something that I was good at. not the best, but i excelled at it.
now.. i don't feel that anymore... this dance company is killing me.. and my confidence is back at 2% instead of 98%...i was soo excited to be apart of this company, but i now feel like i've lost everything i've ever put into dancing.. i feel like the little awkward kid who doesn't really know what's going on..
What is the one thing i'm good at in life... noting anymore.
Today at church, our pastor was talking about the special gifts that God has given each of us.... goodness.. i don't even know what mine is IF i have one. i don't feel i do. maybe he forgot me or something?
i guess i'm frustrated at the fact that i do not excel at any one thing. Great, that makes my life and career easy to plan out.
just needed to rant.
the end.