lame

[letskissthesky]

i need to stop this
this overwhelming feeling to fit a social quota
to be able to meet and greet
it's a disgrace to even be troubled by such things
i feel like i'm not good enough
overlook a situation and feel like i'm supposed to be in the center
i'm a mess to talk to
a fumbling mess of shits and fucks
this is so lame

i hate our need to be comforted by a companion
there's been a void as of late
and it seems like there's no close to it
and i'd be lying if i said i was non-chalant with my kindness
i really am starting to believe in there being something more
running back to old habits
but it's something i know would feel so good

but i can't ponder that
i can't rely on that or anything
i need to go a day at a time
and see what will happen
i'm just so tired of having no gull
and watching everyone conversate their lives away