wow, sometimes i feel like a huge failure.

[letsgolizz]

i mean, right now i'm in the library,
and everyone around me is talking about university.
my friend got into york and i'm just sitting here, writing my stupid stories.
i really want to be happy for her, i do, but i can't.
and i feel fucking terrible.
sometimes i think i'm going to get nowhere in life.
sometimes, i just don't think about it at all,
and sometimes, i don't fucking care.
but really, i do.
i do care and i want to go to college eventually,
but sometimes, i just feel like i'm putting things off.
and maybe i should've told my mom to fuck herself,
and taken the courses i wanted.
then, i would be with all my friends,
talking about college and laughing about residence.
FUCK.