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You all need to see Superbad. Great flick.
That's pretty much all I did on this glorious Saturday night. I've had this really nasty cold for the past couple of days and it's basically made me want to curl up and die. I just haven't been in the mood to go out. It happens a lot after a guywreck - I don't want to see anyone for a few days. The length of the hiatus is contingent upon how much I liked the guy in question.
If I'm going to be completely honest, and there's no reason I shouldn't be on my own journal, part of the reason I haven't been going out is because I feel totally stranded. Jay's friends were my friends. We already had a big conflict over a mutual friend and whose side she was going to take. I just feel alienated and upset and lonely and I'm not quite sure what to do with myself. I can't go to a party without seeing him, and trust me when I say we are not cool yet. I went over there the other day to hang out with his brother (a.k.a. my best friend) and he wouldn't even come in and say hi like a normal person. Instead, when he realized he left his PS2 controller in Billy's room where we were hanging out, he sent his little stepbrother to come in and get it. Because he is five.
Going to school feels like cheating - I get to hit the reset button now that things are going shitty at home. The change will do me some good I think. It'll be nice to have my own friends and do my own thing. Maybe.
That's pretty much all I did on this glorious Saturday night. I've had this really nasty cold for the past couple of days and it's basically made me want to curl up and die. I just haven't been in the mood to go out. It happens a lot after a guywreck - I don't want to see anyone for a few days. The length of the hiatus is contingent upon how much I liked the guy in question.
If I'm going to be completely honest, and there's no reason I shouldn't be on my own journal, part of the reason I haven't been going out is because I feel totally stranded. Jay's friends were my friends. We already had a big conflict over a mutual friend and whose side she was going to take. I just feel alienated and upset and lonely and I'm not quite sure what to do with myself. I can't go to a party without seeing him, and trust me when I say we are not cool yet. I went over there the other day to hang out with his brother (a.k.a. my best friend) and he wouldn't even come in and say hi like a normal person. Instead, when he realized he left his PS2 controller in Billy's room where we were hanging out, he sent his little stepbrother to come in and get it. Because he is five.
Going to school feels like cheating - I get to hit the reset button now that things are going shitty at home. The change will do me some good I think. It'll be nice to have my own friends and do my own thing. Maybe.