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i am miserable. i have somehow managed to gain 9 pounds over night. my body is fucked up. i eat as much as a normal person would for one day and then i blow up. i have become seriously depressed. i sit in the far back in all my classes to avoid any type of conversation. every night i have dreams that have to do with this eating disorder. last night i had a dream that i was in recovery and i woke up to this nightmare.. idk wtf to do next.