"Oh-Em-Gee"
I WAS SUUUUUCH A DOUCHEBAG!! eeew why would i write all that ridiculous shit before?! fuuuuck i want to erase all that crap because i sound so pathetic and stupid! but im not...im going to leave them up to REMIND me NOT to do all that crap ever ever again....grossssssssss
haha anyway!!! on to BETTER NEWS!!
it seems the only times i would ever write in this stupid crap was to talk about "the flavor of the week" which didnt seem like it at the time...but now it goes to show that they all were :]
I definitely DO have someone very super special in my life right now, he knows who he is... :] he'll probably read this when he comes to my house...haha wow i just went through his old posts and mine..we are so different now than we were then..i hope he doesnt read back and feel uncomfortable about some things... :-/
anywaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!! I guess to update..i dont drink, smoke, and im TRYING not to cuss...but i think i cuss ALOT more when im writing than in real life.. but i really do enjoy cussing throughout the day.."it makes things more exciting" ;] lol
after so many years of feeling sad and alone, i finally found what I've been missing! God I'm sorry for shutting you out for so long, and I thank you endlessly for waiting patiently for me, I don't deserve Your love but You shower me with it anyway! Thank You for bringing all these WONDERFUL people to my life, they make me so happy! And thank You for opening the eyes of two people who have been friends since h.s. but never really saw just how perfect they were for each other..until now :] Life has been pretty crazy, but I wouldnt take ANYTHING back..God you have helped mold and shape me into the woman I am today, and You only make me better and better as time passes!
Well I have to go shop for some "chet" and clean up a little and wash my clothes before i leave back to good ole' sul ross again...so I guess ill update this later..?
haha and again AAAHH I WOULD WRITE THE DUMBEST "CHET" BEFORE!!! GROSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
God Bless,
Steph!
haha anyway!!! on to BETTER NEWS!!
it seems the only times i would ever write in this stupid crap was to talk about "the flavor of the week" which didnt seem like it at the time...but now it goes to show that they all were :]
I definitely DO have someone very super special in my life right now, he knows who he is... :] he'll probably read this when he comes to my house...haha wow i just went through his old posts and mine..we are so different now than we were then..i hope he doesnt read back and feel uncomfortable about some things... :-/
anywaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!! I guess to update..i dont drink, smoke, and im TRYING not to cuss...but i think i cuss ALOT more when im writing than in real life.. but i really do enjoy cussing throughout the day.."it makes things more exciting" ;] lol
after so many years of feeling sad and alone, i finally found what I've been missing! God I'm sorry for shutting you out for so long, and I thank you endlessly for waiting patiently for me, I don't deserve Your love but You shower me with it anyway! Thank You for bringing all these WONDERFUL people to my life, they make me so happy! And thank You for opening the eyes of two people who have been friends since h.s. but never really saw just how perfect they were for each other..until now :] Life has been pretty crazy, but I wouldnt take ANYTHING back..God you have helped mold and shape me into the woman I am today, and You only make me better and better as time passes!
Well I have to go shop for some "chet" and clean up a little and wash my clothes before i leave back to good ole' sul ross again...so I guess ill update this later..?
haha and again AAAHH I WOULD WRITE THE DUMBEST "CHET" BEFORE!!! GROSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
God Bless,
Steph!