the very weird convo between myself and darwin
New conversation started at 8/20/06 9:26:44 PM.
BassboyDLM (9:26:43 PM): did he really<<
hotactorz4mi (9:26:50 PM): what?
BassboyDLM (9:26:59 PM): u said john looked like me
hotactorz4mi (9:27:05 PM): yeah
BassboyDLM (9:27:08 PM): how so?
hotactorz4mi (9:27:26 PM): i dont wanna go into detail
BassboyDLM (9:27:34 PM): pleez<
hotactorz4mi (9:27:47 PM): i dotn want tto so ha
BassboyDLM (9:27:56 PM): umm pllez
hotactorz4mi (9:28:10 PM): no, thats what you get for being an ass to me before
BassboyDLM (9:28:54 PM): umm we both said sorry to eachother tho<
BassboyDLM (9:29:02 PM): so u dont really forgive me<
hotactorz4mi (9:29:55 PM): hi, i went to bed that night crying because you were being really mean to be so i dont wanna talk about john....i'll just tell you this, he;s a whole lot fucking nicer that you were
BassboyDLM (9:30:13 PM): were..but not am<<<<
BassboyDLM (9:30:37 PM): u know we culdnt have seen eachother evr
hotactorz4mi (9:30:39 PM): still
hotactorz4mi (9:30:47 PM): im talking about after we broke up
BassboyDLM (9:31:22 PM): i was mean b/c i culdnt stand the fact i broke up with u..i took my anger at myself out on u<<<
hotactorz4mi (9:31:59 PM): so you make fun of my boobs being small and my having a crush on dom natale?
BassboyDLM (9:32:41 PM): doms cool..and i just makje fun of ur small boobs b/c its the only time we actually like talked
hotactorz4mi (9:33:40 PM): thats no excuse
BassboyDLM (9:34:17 PM): idk why i just did..its prolly b/c i still liked u<
BassboyDLM (9:35:17 PM): and i was sooo jelous i nvr got to play are u nervous with u or anyhting like tht
BassboyDLM (9:35:31 PM): so i down talked you...........why idk
hotactorz4mi (9:35:44 PM): you really hurt my feelings
BassboyDLM (9:36:00 PM): i thought u wuldnt care about what i said
hotactorz4mi (9:36:21 PM): i did care because im touchy about subjects like that
BassboyDLM (9:36:39 PM): well i told u ..dotn worry one day ull b a c
BassboyDLM (9:37:34 PM): but yeah....i thought u wuldnt care b/c we werent together
BassboyDLM (9:38:17 PM): and when evr wed talk all ud talked about wer all of the other guys u wer getting with..and it made me really jelous<
hotactorz4mi (9:38:30 PM): you dont get it, even thou you were my ex, unless your conor balsamo, i still care what you have to say
BassboyDLM (9:38:55 PM): well i apologize for making a assumption
BassboyDLM (9:38:59 PM): an*
hotactorz4mi (9:39:10 PM): anyway
hotactorz4mi (9:39:26 PM): speaking of conor balsamo, he's been being a real asshold to me lately
BassboyDLM (9:39:42 PM): u wnat me to help?
hotactorz4mi (9:39:57 PM): yes...
BassboyDLM (9:40:00 PM): i ll kick him in the balls.....wait ..i forogt..he doesnt have any<
hotactorz4mi (9:40:09 PM): hehe
BassboyDLM (9:40:44 PM): u still not forgive me tho..answer honestly>
hotactorz4mi (9:41:07 PM): i forgive you...if you do me a favor and kick him in the balls
hotactorz4mi (9:41:18 PM): and ruin his chances of fatherhood
BassboyDLM (9:42:08 PM): hell yeah
BassboyDLM (9:42:11 PM): but ud never date me again...right.......like if u got the chance in high school ?
hotactorz4mi (9:42:44 PM): if i got the chance i high school...i wouldn't cuz i'd allready be dating difonzo
BassboyDLM (9:43:04 PM): nahh hell prolly marry mz kindregen
hotactorz4mi (9:43:11 PM): hehee
BassboyDLM (9:43:24 PM): so true<
BassboyDLM (9:44:21 PM): u kno it tooo<
BassboyDLM (9:44:51 PM): he deffinetly wuld if he got the chance too<<<
hotactorz4mi (9:44:55 PM): we would've dated this year if he wasnt in high school. so apparently the minute im a freshman we're toghether...
BassboyDLM (9:45:12 PM): oo jeeze
BassboyDLM (9:45:24 PM): so once schoo lets out this year<
BassboyDLM (9:45:27 PM): nice
hotactorz4mi (9:46:01 PM): yeah
BassboyDLM (9:46:05 PM): he goes to my pool>
hotactorz4mi (9:46:13 PM): sweet
BassboyDLM (9:47:01 PM): yeah he flirts with the lifeguards...or at least thats what it semmes like
hotactorz4mi (9:47:01 PM): being a hippie is fun
BassboyDLM (9:47:13 PM): is it really?
hotactorz4mi (9:47:14 PM): i <33 him
hotactorz4mi (9:47:18 PM): yess
BassboyDLM (9:47:27 PM): do u shave ur legs?
hotactorz4mi (9:47:37 PM): yeah, why?
BassboyDLM (9:48:18 PM): wel some hippies dont
BassboyDLM (9:48:22 PM): so i was just curious
hotactorz4mi (9:48:28 PM): well this hippie does
BassboyDLM (9:48:37 PM): allrighty..thats good
BassboyDLM (9:51:52 PM): so.. did i tell u how i thought of cutting after i broke up with u?
hotactorz4mi (9:52:01 PM): no
hotactorz4mi (9:52:15 PM): why?
BassboyDLM (9:52:18 PM): well then i wont<
hotactorz4mi (9:52:24 PM): tell me
BassboyDLM (9:52:44 PM): weve both got something we want to kno frum eachother<<<
hotactorz4mi (9:53:00 PM): okay...john and you have like...the same face and body frame
BassboyDLM (9:53:15 PM): u looked me up?
BassboyDLM (9:53:25 PM): and i lost wieght tooo<
BassboyDLM (9:53:31 PM): and ill tell u know
BassboyDLM (9:53:35 PM): now*
BassboyDLM (9:54:23 PM): u ready?
hotactorz4mi (9:54:29 PM): yes
BassboyDLM (9:55:47 PM): alrighty well i was really depressed....and i actually had aknife to my wrist b/c i absolutely hated myself for letting u go the way i did...and for evn letting u go..i know that u are a extremely extraordinary girl and i blew my chance and i hated myself alot for it<<<
BassboyDLM (9:56:07 PM): and i still do when evr i talk to u or go on ur myspace...
hotactorz4mi (9:56:51 PM): sorry...im just not into like that anymore
BassboyDLM (9:57:30 PM): i know u dont like me....u shuld just say it..u hate the way i was a jackass to u..and u shuld b
BassboyDLM (9:57:45 PM): and that makes me evn more angry at myself<
hotactorz4mi (9:58:15 PM): im sorry
BassboyDLM (9:59:53 PM): sorry for what..me being a bitch and a half to u....no i think im the one who shuld be sorry
BassboyDLM (10:00:57 PM): seriously emily
BassboyDLM (10:01:02 PM): ..what r u sorry for?
BassboyDLM (10:01:23 PM): theres nothing for u to be sorry for i did all of the stupid shit.....
BassboyDLM (10:01:47 PM): all b/c i felt insignifigant comopared to a play..and i lost the chance with u<
hotactorz4mi (10:02:21 PM): woah....you really did love me
BassboyDLM (10:02:48 PM): yeha i did..i dotn just say stuff like that
BassboyDLM (10:03:56 PM): and it hurt myself proly just as much as it did for u to let u go..but i did it for u..so u cul;d be with a guy who u culd c everyday and just be urself and hang around with and have an awesome time..but all wed be r im convos and phone talks
hotactorz4mi (10:04:20 PM): except for the part where he never liked me
BassboyDLM (10:05:04 PM): not what u deserve......u deserve so much more than a guy u talk to on the internet..u deserve way better....way better than what i thought i culd b
BassboyDLM (10:05:15 PM): thats why i let u down so hard
hotactorz4mi (10:05:42 PM): i swear, i realy was in love with you
BassboyDLM (10:06:19 PM): allright theres the truth and whneevr i got thru my yearbook a stabbing pain goes thru my heart when evr i c ur signature......and when evr i look at ur picture i think of what we culd have been......and i hate my self for ending what we hadd.....and right now im crying...but yeah<
BassboyDLM (10:06:25 PM): go*
hotactorz4mi (10:06:49 PM): im sorry
BassboyDLM (10:07:03 PM): what r u sorry for..not liking me?
hotactorz4mi (10:07:13 PM): im sorry for hurting yoou
BassboyDLM (10:07:17 PM): no..u didnt
BassboyDLM (10:07:21 PM): i did
BassboyDLM (10:07:33 PM): u wer/r perfect.....
hotactorz4mi (10:07:52 PM): i think not
BassboyDLM (10:07:57 PM): i think u wer<
BassboyDLM (10:08:04 PM): and i still think u r......
BassboyDLM (10:08:22 PM): but u have no feelings for me..so im just stuck likign the girl that i chased away<
BassboyDLM (10:09:05 PM): and i think this is the first time ive honestly cried liked this since....since i borke up with u<
BassboyDLM (10:10:00 PM): and so......i just go away and cry in the conor dwelling on the past killing my future..over a girl that broke up with<
BassboyDLM (10:10:11 PM): corner*
hotactorz4mi (10:10:30 PM): im really sorry that we ended that by
hotactorz4mi (10:10:33 PM): way**
BassboyDLM (10:10:59 PM): why do u think u werent the perfect girlfriend?
hotactorz4mi (10:11:09 PM): i think im not perfect
BassboyDLM (10:11:49 PM): well i do..evn if u have small boobs..u wer prolly one of the best things that has evr happened to me
hotactorz4mi (10:12:15 PM): i just wish you'd get over me
BassboyDLM (10:12:30 PM): why b/c im making it hard on u?
hotactorz4mi (10:13:01 PM): no, because its been really awkward like this before for me, because of a guy who never got over me
BassboyDLM (10:13:36 PM): well..i just wanted to tell u.......and i thikn me telling u this has helped me..ge ovr u
hotactorz4mi (10:13:45 PM): im gladd
hotactorz4mi (10:13:55 PM): ugh, dom natale im me back please!
hotactorz4mi (10:13:58 PM): oops sorry
BassboyDLM (10:14:17 PM): yeha u r glad b/c u want nothing to do with me<
BassboyDLM (10:14:36 PM): and u dont need to say no..i know its true
hotactorz4mi (10:14:51 PM): no, im glad becuase i wanted us to be civil to each other atleast
BassboyDLM (10:15:10 PM): well i already blew that one
BassboyDLM (10:15:33 PM): but u nvr asnwered........do u evn care about me>
hotactorz4mi (10:15:40 PM): as a friend, yes
BassboyDLM (10:15:54 PM): allrighty..thats all i want
hotactorz4mi (10:17:05 PM): g2g cyaa l8r hun
hotactorz4mi (10:17:08 PM): feel better
Conversation ended at 8/20/06 10:17:08 PM.
BassboyDLM (9:26:43 PM): did he really<<
hotactorz4mi (9:26:50 PM): what?
BassboyDLM (9:26:59 PM): u said john looked like me
hotactorz4mi (9:27:05 PM): yeah
BassboyDLM (9:27:08 PM): how so?
hotactorz4mi (9:27:26 PM): i dont wanna go into detail
BassboyDLM (9:27:34 PM): pleez<
hotactorz4mi (9:27:47 PM): i dotn want tto so ha
BassboyDLM (9:27:56 PM): umm pllez
hotactorz4mi (9:28:10 PM): no, thats what you get for being an ass to me before
BassboyDLM (9:28:54 PM): umm we both said sorry to eachother tho<
BassboyDLM (9:29:02 PM): so u dont really forgive me<
hotactorz4mi (9:29:55 PM): hi, i went to bed that night crying because you were being really mean to be so i dont wanna talk about john....i'll just tell you this, he;s a whole lot fucking nicer that you were
BassboyDLM (9:30:13 PM): were..but not am<<<<
BassboyDLM (9:30:37 PM): u know we culdnt have seen eachother evr
hotactorz4mi (9:30:39 PM): still
hotactorz4mi (9:30:47 PM): im talking about after we broke up
BassboyDLM (9:31:22 PM): i was mean b/c i culdnt stand the fact i broke up with u..i took my anger at myself out on u<<<
hotactorz4mi (9:31:59 PM): so you make fun of my boobs being small and my having a crush on dom natale?
BassboyDLM (9:32:41 PM): doms cool..and i just makje fun of ur small boobs b/c its the only time we actually like talked
hotactorz4mi (9:33:40 PM): thats no excuse
BassboyDLM (9:34:17 PM): idk why i just did..its prolly b/c i still liked u<
BassboyDLM (9:35:17 PM): and i was sooo jelous i nvr got to play are u nervous with u or anyhting like tht
BassboyDLM (9:35:31 PM): so i down talked you...........why idk
hotactorz4mi (9:35:44 PM): you really hurt my feelings
BassboyDLM (9:36:00 PM): i thought u wuldnt care about what i said
hotactorz4mi (9:36:21 PM): i did care because im touchy about subjects like that
BassboyDLM (9:36:39 PM): well i told u ..dotn worry one day ull b a c
BassboyDLM (9:37:34 PM): but yeah....i thought u wuldnt care b/c we werent together
BassboyDLM (9:38:17 PM): and when evr wed talk all ud talked about wer all of the other guys u wer getting with..and it made me really jelous<
hotactorz4mi (9:38:30 PM): you dont get it, even thou you were my ex, unless your conor balsamo, i still care what you have to say
BassboyDLM (9:38:55 PM): well i apologize for making a assumption
BassboyDLM (9:38:59 PM): an*
hotactorz4mi (9:39:10 PM): anyway
hotactorz4mi (9:39:26 PM): speaking of conor balsamo, he's been being a real asshold to me lately
BassboyDLM (9:39:42 PM): u wnat me to help?
hotactorz4mi (9:39:57 PM): yes...
BassboyDLM (9:40:00 PM): i ll kick him in the balls.....wait ..i forogt..he doesnt have any<
hotactorz4mi (9:40:09 PM): hehe
BassboyDLM (9:40:44 PM): u still not forgive me tho..answer honestly>
hotactorz4mi (9:41:07 PM): i forgive you...if you do me a favor and kick him in the balls
hotactorz4mi (9:41:18 PM): and ruin his chances of fatherhood
BassboyDLM (9:42:08 PM): hell yeah
BassboyDLM (9:42:11 PM): but ud never date me again...right.......like if u got the chance in high school ?
hotactorz4mi (9:42:44 PM): if i got the chance i high school...i wouldn't cuz i'd allready be dating difonzo
BassboyDLM (9:43:04 PM): nahh hell prolly marry mz kindregen
hotactorz4mi (9:43:11 PM): hehee
BassboyDLM (9:43:24 PM): so true<
BassboyDLM (9:44:21 PM): u kno it tooo<
BassboyDLM (9:44:51 PM): he deffinetly wuld if he got the chance too<<<
hotactorz4mi (9:44:55 PM): we would've dated this year if he wasnt in high school. so apparently the minute im a freshman we're toghether...
BassboyDLM (9:45:12 PM): oo jeeze
BassboyDLM (9:45:24 PM): so once schoo lets out this year<
BassboyDLM (9:45:27 PM): nice
hotactorz4mi (9:46:01 PM): yeah
BassboyDLM (9:46:05 PM): he goes to my pool>
hotactorz4mi (9:46:13 PM): sweet
BassboyDLM (9:47:01 PM): yeah he flirts with the lifeguards...or at least thats what it semmes like
hotactorz4mi (9:47:01 PM): being a hippie is fun
BassboyDLM (9:47:13 PM): is it really?
hotactorz4mi (9:47:14 PM): i <33 him
hotactorz4mi (9:47:18 PM): yess
BassboyDLM (9:47:27 PM): do u shave ur legs?
hotactorz4mi (9:47:37 PM): yeah, why?
BassboyDLM (9:48:18 PM): wel some hippies dont
BassboyDLM (9:48:22 PM): so i was just curious
hotactorz4mi (9:48:28 PM): well this hippie does
BassboyDLM (9:48:37 PM): allrighty..thats good
BassboyDLM (9:51:52 PM): so.. did i tell u how i thought of cutting after i broke up with u?
hotactorz4mi (9:52:01 PM): no
hotactorz4mi (9:52:15 PM): why?
BassboyDLM (9:52:18 PM): well then i wont<
hotactorz4mi (9:52:24 PM): tell me
BassboyDLM (9:52:44 PM): weve both got something we want to kno frum eachother<<<
hotactorz4mi (9:53:00 PM): okay...john and you have like...the same face and body frame
BassboyDLM (9:53:15 PM): u looked me up?
BassboyDLM (9:53:25 PM): and i lost wieght tooo<
BassboyDLM (9:53:31 PM): and ill tell u know
BassboyDLM (9:53:35 PM): now*
BassboyDLM (9:54:23 PM): u ready?
hotactorz4mi (9:54:29 PM): yes
BassboyDLM (9:55:47 PM): alrighty well i was really depressed....and i actually had aknife to my wrist b/c i absolutely hated myself for letting u go the way i did...and for evn letting u go..i know that u are a extremely extraordinary girl and i blew my chance and i hated myself alot for it<<<
BassboyDLM (9:56:07 PM): and i still do when evr i talk to u or go on ur myspace...
hotactorz4mi (9:56:51 PM): sorry...im just not into like that anymore
BassboyDLM (9:57:30 PM): i know u dont like me....u shuld just say it..u hate the way i was a jackass to u..and u shuld b
BassboyDLM (9:57:45 PM): and that makes me evn more angry at myself<
hotactorz4mi (9:58:15 PM): im sorry
BassboyDLM (9:59:53 PM): sorry for what..me being a bitch and a half to u....no i think im the one who shuld be sorry
BassboyDLM (10:00:57 PM): seriously emily
BassboyDLM (10:01:02 PM): ..what r u sorry for?
BassboyDLM (10:01:23 PM): theres nothing for u to be sorry for i did all of the stupid shit.....
BassboyDLM (10:01:47 PM): all b/c i felt insignifigant comopared to a play..and i lost the chance with u<
hotactorz4mi (10:02:21 PM): woah....you really did love me
BassboyDLM (10:02:48 PM): yeha i did..i dotn just say stuff like that
BassboyDLM (10:03:56 PM): and it hurt myself proly just as much as it did for u to let u go..but i did it for u..so u cul;d be with a guy who u culd c everyday and just be urself and hang around with and have an awesome time..but all wed be r im convos and phone talks
hotactorz4mi (10:04:20 PM): except for the part where he never liked me
BassboyDLM (10:05:04 PM): not what u deserve......u deserve so much more than a guy u talk to on the internet..u deserve way better....way better than what i thought i culd b
BassboyDLM (10:05:15 PM): thats why i let u down so hard
hotactorz4mi (10:05:42 PM): i swear, i realy was in love with you
BassboyDLM (10:06:19 PM): allright theres the truth and whneevr i got thru my yearbook a stabbing pain goes thru my heart when evr i c ur signature......and when evr i look at ur picture i think of what we culd have been......and i hate my self for ending what we hadd.....and right now im crying...but yeah<
BassboyDLM (10:06:25 PM): go*
hotactorz4mi (10:06:49 PM): im sorry
BassboyDLM (10:07:03 PM): what r u sorry for..not liking me?
hotactorz4mi (10:07:13 PM): im sorry for hurting yoou
BassboyDLM (10:07:17 PM): no..u didnt
BassboyDLM (10:07:21 PM): i did
BassboyDLM (10:07:33 PM): u wer/r perfect.....
hotactorz4mi (10:07:52 PM): i think not
BassboyDLM (10:07:57 PM): i think u wer<
BassboyDLM (10:08:04 PM): and i still think u r......
BassboyDLM (10:08:22 PM): but u have no feelings for me..so im just stuck likign the girl that i chased away<
BassboyDLM (10:09:05 PM): and i think this is the first time ive honestly cried liked this since....since i borke up with u<
BassboyDLM (10:10:00 PM): and so......i just go away and cry in the conor dwelling on the past killing my future..over a girl that broke up with<
BassboyDLM (10:10:11 PM): corner*
hotactorz4mi (10:10:30 PM): im really sorry that we ended that by
hotactorz4mi (10:10:33 PM): way**
BassboyDLM (10:10:59 PM): why do u think u werent the perfect girlfriend?
hotactorz4mi (10:11:09 PM): i think im not perfect
BassboyDLM (10:11:49 PM): well i do..evn if u have small boobs..u wer prolly one of the best things that has evr happened to me
hotactorz4mi (10:12:15 PM): i just wish you'd get over me
BassboyDLM (10:12:30 PM): why b/c im making it hard on u?
hotactorz4mi (10:13:01 PM): no, because its been really awkward like this before for me, because of a guy who never got over me
BassboyDLM (10:13:36 PM): well..i just wanted to tell u.......and i thikn me telling u this has helped me..ge ovr u
hotactorz4mi (10:13:45 PM): im gladd
hotactorz4mi (10:13:55 PM): ugh, dom natale im me back please!
hotactorz4mi (10:13:58 PM): oops sorry
BassboyDLM (10:14:17 PM): yeha u r glad b/c u want nothing to do with me<
BassboyDLM (10:14:36 PM): and u dont need to say no..i know its true
hotactorz4mi (10:14:51 PM): no, im glad becuase i wanted us to be civil to each other atleast
BassboyDLM (10:15:10 PM): well i already blew that one
BassboyDLM (10:15:33 PM): but u nvr asnwered........do u evn care about me>
hotactorz4mi (10:15:40 PM): as a friend, yes
BassboyDLM (10:15:54 PM): allrighty..thats all i want
hotactorz4mi (10:17:05 PM): g2g cyaa l8r hun
hotactorz4mi (10:17:08 PM): feel better
Conversation ended at 8/20/06 10:17:08 PM.