Reality
I can't leave this behind, completely.
I don't know why. Maybe because it's not friend's only, and so I do want others to actually know how I feel, or maybe because I've had this stupid thing for over 2 years.
Either way, I posted this in my new one, and thought I should put it in here, too.
It's how I feel about reality. though, I'm sure that's obvious.
Reality is no fun. Actually, it kind of sucks.
The other day in health we watched this movie on drugs and whatever and the girl said she did rock climbing instead because it puts you into reality when drugs take you out. But is escaping reality from time to time really that bad? [I'm not saying do drugs to escape it, because that's not something I'm going to encourage, but really now.]
Life isn't all that it's cracked up to be. Because in reality my family lives pay check to pay check and my mom is always worrying about not having enough money. In reality, my mom can't really afford this house. In reality, I barely see my best friends; the ones I've known for 7+ years. in reality I'm not doing so great in school. In reality, people get hurt.
So tell me, what is so great about reality? Because right now, the way I'm looking at it, not many things are that fabulous. They actually never have been. No, my life doesn't suck completely. Yes, I've had some good times, but it's not like life's ever been really, really great. Tell me what is so bad about wanting to be taken out of reality every now and then because reality just sucks? Because the people around are no help to you, and it seems like your life's a movie that someone keeps rewinding and playing over and over again because nothing different happens.
Someone please tell me why it's so wrong to want to escape teenage drama and this screwed up place we call a world that so happens to be our home. I know that I like living inside my head from time to time. I know that when I block out all the nonsense and the petty drama and just let myself escape into my own little world that it feels good. So try and bring me back to reality, but reality can suck my non-existant left one because it hasn't helped me one inch along the way. It's only brought me down more. It's only made me realize that in reality, it truely is me against the world.
I don't know why. Maybe because it's not friend's only, and so I do want others to actually know how I feel, or maybe because I've had this stupid thing for over 2 years.
Either way, I posted this in my new one, and thought I should put it in here, too.
It's how I feel about reality. though, I'm sure that's obvious.
Reality is no fun. Actually, it kind of sucks.
The other day in health we watched this movie on drugs and whatever and the girl said she did rock climbing instead because it puts you into reality when drugs take you out. But is escaping reality from time to time really that bad? [I'm not saying do drugs to escape it, because that's not something I'm going to encourage, but really now.]
Life isn't all that it's cracked up to be. Because in reality my family lives pay check to pay check and my mom is always worrying about not having enough money. In reality, my mom can't really afford this house. In reality, I barely see my best friends; the ones I've known for 7+ years. in reality I'm not doing so great in school. In reality, people get hurt.
So tell me, what is so great about reality? Because right now, the way I'm looking at it, not many things are that fabulous. They actually never have been. No, my life doesn't suck completely. Yes, I've had some good times, but it's not like life's ever been really, really great. Tell me what is so bad about wanting to be taken out of reality every now and then because reality just sucks? Because the people around are no help to you, and it seems like your life's a movie that someone keeps rewinding and playing over and over again because nothing different happens.
Someone please tell me why it's so wrong to want to escape teenage drama and this screwed up place we call a world that so happens to be our home. I know that I like living inside my head from time to time. I know that when I block out all the nonsense and the petty drama and just let myself escape into my own little world that it feels good. So try and bring me back to reality, but reality can suck my non-existant left one because it hasn't helped me one inch along the way. It's only brought me down more. It's only made me realize that in reality, it truely is me against the world.