You try SO hard to pull ahead of the game, only to throw away your medal.
sooo when a guy complains that he needs a girlfriend, its not a big deal. but if a girl were to say she needs a boyfriend, that seems a little pathetic. i hate my liiiife. i always feel left out of everything (even though im not…) because (conscience kicking in…) im gay, lame, pathetic, you name it. im pretty much stuck in the mud… umm all i ever want to do is sleep because that doesnt involve anything from reality. i dont know what to do with myself and im developing ocd. i do things in circles and i drive myself crazy. i always have something on my mind (things i dont want to think about) and i feel like im always running out of time ?? im a loser… a particle of dust floating around only to become an orb in a god damn picture. (of you)