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i am like so depressed about like everything... i have this overwhelming sadness... like im not good enough at softball 2 be on this team nd im prolly only on it cause they want this other girl nd i hate feeling used...but im over worrying about things like tht nd i dont want ppl telling me or making faces making it look obvious tht im not good enough... cause on top of all the pain im going through it just makes it hurt worse... i might just wanna not play anymore cause its not worth all this. but im not here 2 live other ppls lives im here 2 live mine so plz dont question my decisions.. so i mean i guess i gotta think about my future if ppl wanna use me maybe it will work out in the end maybe ill prove them wrong... it just hurts my feelings on top of everything else.
im like so ready for this period of my life 2 be over its like 2 much drama nd its so hurtful nd painful. like i always set myself up for pain. i mean everyones gonna die someday so you gotta deal with tht kind of pain. nd pain of ppl talkin bad about you or not liking you. IM OVER IT!
i really might go into a deep depression. i really wouldnt mind just staying in my room nd sleeping for the rest of my life. nd im over getting mad about stupid things im not a lil baby anymore i dont need 2 live my life angry at ppl for no reason at all. thts why im not mad at anyone about anything it just hurts my feelings a lidl bit but theres nothing i can change about it so i dont have a reason 2 sit around nd pout!
nd im not out 2 be anyones best friend... im finding it hard 2 be my own right now. but i mean like all this stress at one time makes me wanna cry for days on in. but im not a baby anymore so i just gotta keep my head up nd act like im ok...
this thing is for me 2 express all my emotions nd im not trying 2 be mean 2 anybody i love everybody but im just very emotional right now nd i need 2 get all my stress out somewhere. i cant change what is nd what will be im just gonna live my life as best i can with out added stress.
im out bye luv ya CoMmEnT!
im like so ready for this period of my life 2 be over its like 2 much drama nd its so hurtful nd painful. like i always set myself up for pain. i mean everyones gonna die someday so you gotta deal with tht kind of pain. nd pain of ppl talkin bad about you or not liking you. IM OVER IT!
i really might go into a deep depression. i really wouldnt mind just staying in my room nd sleeping for the rest of my life. nd im over getting mad about stupid things im not a lil baby anymore i dont need 2 live my life angry at ppl for no reason at all. thts why im not mad at anyone about anything it just hurts my feelings a lidl bit but theres nothing i can change about it so i dont have a reason 2 sit around nd pout!
nd im not out 2 be anyones best friend... im finding it hard 2 be my own right now. but i mean like all this stress at one time makes me wanna cry for days on in. but im not a baby anymore so i just gotta keep my head up nd act like im ok...
this thing is for me 2 express all my emotions nd im not trying 2 be mean 2 anybody i love everybody but im just very emotional right now nd i need 2 get all my stress out somewhere. i cant change what is nd what will be im just gonna live my life as best i can with out added stress.
im out bye luv ya CoMmEnT!