Just so that you know for future reference...replacing the word God..good,not taking the lords name in vain, but than following it up with a swear word, just makes it just as bad, and I got super ticked off, I understand no one is perfect, me either, If you want to "become" a missionary though, you should at least make a concious effort, do you know what I mean? It s different when your typing than when your speaking, because typing rewuires more thought process..you get what I'm saying, and I know this will make you mad, but I just want to say this and through it out there as an informative thing, You cannot serve God untill you are glorifying him in all that you do, not doing you homework, or good in school, or not going for small reasons (i realize many reasons ARE indeed valid) or swearing, or mingling with non christians, and becomign close to them, (blessed be the man that neither sitteth in the seat of the scornful, nor standeth with the man of the unrightcheous...etc) are all not glorifying to God, something I have been thinking about that you may want to take into concideration.
I dont understand...i didnt say anything to replace saying gods name in vain??....i did say damn...and i apologies...
i know that when im absent it upsets you. And it might anger you to hear this.. but i would love if you got over it.. or kept your anger at me...to yourself. I get enough of it from my mom and my teachers....and myself, especially.
Im working at it even if it doesnt seem like it.. i really am hitting a brick wall right now...im seriously struggling. You know me te best.. im not sayin you dont.. but theres alot im going through you dont understand.
I dont want to give you any sort of excuse for staying home..cuz i know it would never change your feelings...
i know im far from becomeing a full faithful christian... but you've got to understand..im not anywhere near your development under christ, or anything. You've got to understand because you already went through a period of...stepping out of the christian life..in like 7th grade or so (...and you stepped back...dont think im trying to discredit you)
And it would be foolish of me not to take what you say into consideration.. I do..i always do. Every step i take..i do look back and critisize myself..and i know im not being as christianly as i can. Im regretful. ( i pray all the time that god will help me get back into church and be better, as a christian...and im trying to make an effort)
I dont think that means its over..i dont think that means i shouldnt want to do missions work. If i set that goal...i think its good. I have time.
Ugh..i dont think any of this makes sense because my family is screaming in the backround,but i hope some of it comes out right.
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i know that when im absent it upsets you.
And it might anger you to hear this..
but i would love if you got over it.. or kept your anger at me...to yourself. I get enough of it from my mom and my teachers....and myself, especially.
Im working at it even if it doesnt seem like it.. i really am hitting a brick wall right now...im seriously struggling. You know me te best..
im not sayin you dont..
but theres alot im going through you dont understand.
I dont want to give you any sort of excuse for staying home..cuz i know it would never change your feelings...
i know im far from becomeing a full faithful christian...
but you've got to understand..im not anywhere near your development under christ, or anything.
You've got to understand because you already went through a period of...stepping out of the christian life..in like 7th grade or so (...and you stepped back...dont think im trying to discredit you)
And it would be foolish of me not to take what you say into consideration..
I do..i always do.
Every step i take..i do look back and critisize myself..and i know im not being as christianly as i can. Im regretful. ( i pray all the time that god will help me get back into church and be better, as a christian...and im trying to make an effort)
I dont think that means its over..i dont think that means i shouldnt want to do missions work. If i set that goal...i think its good. I have time.
Ugh..i dont think any of this makes sense because my family is screaming in the backround,but i hope some of it comes out right.
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