This is It, Amy Winehouse.

Jul 29, 2011 18:56

I am a big fan of Amy Winehouse. She was extremely talented, raw, unique, and troubled girl. She was also Jewish, which always feels like a special type of connection.
I have always had a problem with comments here and there like Amy is in troubles, does not she realize she needs help? She looks unhappy. Happy people don't do drugs. It is as though people saying that trying to justify that they made better choices in life. I don't think that Amys story is all about drugs and addiction. Yes, this is all a big part of it, and if you are curious to see how addiction looks - just google Amy Winehouse in Serbia. It says it all.

I think all of us made wrong choices in life. Sometimes I go to a very dark place, and you know what? It is not pretty there. Life is i general a very scary place to be. Very few of us end as addicts though/ Yes, we experiement with substances here and there, but I believe there is something more important to Amy's story.

What makes me actually sad is not the thing that most people find saddening - the talent that is born once in perhaps hundreds of years kills herself in binge drinking and shooting up drugs. I am sad for how her life seemed to be going - having this gift, but deriving her happiness from a distructive relationship. I think most girls will agree with me - we all had them. Destructive reationships - ones that make you weak, make you want to stay home and obsess what you could have possibly done wrong, and what he is going to do or say next. And you don't have any power or choice. You follow, oblige and hell who cares, right? Because you are so happy, this what he wants, and yes, yes, yes I want it too.

But most of us grow out of it, or lucky to be ditched, or just something happens and you grow up and stop basing your happiness on Him (He is always with a capital letter in this type of relationship). You just don't do it anymore, not interested, thankyouvermuch.

As it seems to me not in Amy's case. It is extremly sad to see how a talent how suffocated in the life of co-dependancy, co-suffering, her relatinship with Blake. This is just wrong.

So, if there is any lesson for us all there - it is not happy people don't do drugs. They do. It is that happy people do not allow any emotional blackmail and destructive relationships to happen.

Rest in Peace, Amy.

life, sad

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