Midnight Saturday Evening watching Fine Living Channel -- reflections on life, upcoming
It's midnight on Saturday night and I've put a pin in it. I've gradually closed pretty much everyone except my kids and my man out of my life. I've somehow turned myself into a human island, not deliberately but still efectively over time. This is the sort of thing that just creeps up on you, until BAM, you're there. Now, in my case. Not good, since like it or not human beings are social animals. Some of the alienation of my friends, neighbors, family, and others in my life has been active. But mostly it has been purely passive neglect. Lately, I've been experiencing a lot of bodily pain, so my awareness of my personal situation has been accentuated...high quality painkillers are good for that sort of thing.
On Thursday 11/9, I'll have major surgery on my kidneys to remove a big stone that my surgeon tells me could "take over" my kidney if untreated, whatever the hell that means. On Tuesday 11/15, it'll be ten years since my family and I separated after I came out of the closet at 38. Physically and mentally, this will be a pretty rough time. I may be on here a bit, reflecting and reaching out. Somehow, whenever I am in physical or mental pain in my life in the past, I tend to cut off a lot of people in my life, so now I want to reach out here. If this interests you, then please feel free to hang around. If not, then God Bless anyway. A bit while back, I mentioned James Joycean train of thought...choo-choo.
Along the lines of the latter part of the title line, they were doing a "What to Get for the $$: Travel" series of specials. I ended up with two faves, one of which was Austin TX, a place which I understand is pretty gay-friendly. After seeing what it has to offer, and despite the fact that it is in Bush Country, I want to go there with Jim if the damn real estate market ever turns around and we can stop deficit spending for once (please Lord.) The other was the Greek Islands: holy smoke! I wish Logo would do a travelogue, I only got a glimpse of some of the boyz on Mykonos and the other islands, but point us to the gay naked beaches and Jim and I are very there...maybe lottery tickets would be quicker.