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sometimes (most times) i think jason is absolutely perfect for me. and then sometimes he acts so indifferent and inattentive toward me even though i tell him that he is acting that way and i feel insecure. it's like he ether doesn't care about me or he is just being an airhead. why doesn't he see that it makes me sad when he acts like that? i have to spend my weekend going to utah to fix barbed wire fences with him and his mormon side of the family, but why should i even go do something i don't want to do if i don't even feel loved? i don't know if i'm just being too emotional or what, but it has been consistently getting worse for over a week. i've been all alone because my family is camping and i have no one to talk to because most of my friends could give a shit.