update
i just spent 2 weeks with max, the guy i met in england. he came out here and stayed with my family. it's crazy, now that he's gone, my whole family misses him. so do i. he wants to try and move out here to be with me in about 6 weeks. that is so crazy to me. i want him to but i'm afraid that it wont work out for whatever reason so i'd feel bad for him to leave his friends and job and all that. jon has been wanting to get back together ever since i met max, claiming that things will be different between us... how can he know that? honestly, he broke up with me 4 times for a reason... now he wants to spend the rest of his life with me? i don't think so. all i wanted for the last almost 3 years was for him to love me as much as i love him & he finally starts doing so after i meet somebody else who has more love for me within two weeks that jon showed me in our whole relationship. fate is cruel. i don't know what to do. :(