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today's been kinda tough. i nearly started crying in church today while i was taking communion and praying. its been almost a week now. a very hard week. im doing everything i can to keep my mind of things. i had abby over last night to work on a project. we watched jim carey movies. ill be getting my internet back in a few days but my dad's gonna be putting a program on my computer that will tell him EVERYTHING i do, every site i see, every i.m. i recieve and send, every email i recieve and send, every keystroke i make, everything. this should go on for about a month or two or three or whoever knows how long it'll take to get his trust back. i dont know when ill be able to talk to duke again. i have no idea whatsoever. i want to go back to my shrink, but that wont be happening until the week after next.... thanksgiving week i believe. oh well. life has changed a lot for me. its hard for me to carry on normally, but im doing it. im doing the best i can. i went to go see the legend of zorro today. that was an awesome movie. it was so kickass. i was sitting in the back, all by myself. mom and ty were up in the front. i saw ketchup working there today. i swear he kept staring at me. i was on the phone w/ ashley. i wonder if he recognized me?? i also saw a dude named andrew. he hung out w/ duke's band a lot too. well, back to school tomorrow. i havent had a long enough weekend. but oh well. gotta push forward. anyways, i might update tomorrow. does anyone even read this anymore? oh well.