Bad days
I hav had a bad couple of days (actually more). I am so exausted. Like honestly...I think I need to reassess my whole existance now. I'm way insecure at the moment, and I'm getting to the point where all i want to do is sleep because its the easiest way to kill time without feeling any pain. I dont know what to think anymore, I dont know who to trust ....I dont know if I trust anyone at all. I used to believe I didnt trust aaron...but now I realize I trust him more than anyone else in my life. Now, however, I dont know if I even trust myself.
But I guess I'm just going through a low point. A very low point. I've never felt more lonely in my life than I did this past week. Actually...yeah I have. And for those feelings to resurface again. Blegh. I didnt think I would ever feel that again. I would rather die.
I just wish I had some self confidence. I dont though. Especially not right now. I think I need to find some kind of religion...have some kind of purpose in my life. Because right now I'm honestly so lost that I dont know if Ill find the same path I was on again.
But I guess I'm just going through a low point. A very low point. I've never felt more lonely in my life than I did this past week. Actually...yeah I have. And for those feelings to resurface again. Blegh. I didnt think I would ever feel that again. I would rather die.
I just wish I had some self confidence. I dont though. Especially not right now. I think I need to find some kind of religion...have some kind of purpose in my life. Because right now I'm honestly so lost that I dont know if Ill find the same path I was on again.