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so.. i thought that i was fine with the break up. i mean hell its almost been a month.
i havent even thought about it that much-really! ive been preoccupied with school and nick.
tried to call keith last night.. no answer. so i was like ok, im not mad but im done. done done done.
then he signs on- and automatically IMs me.
and the conversation goes as follows:
HockeyK99 (5:02:31 PM): hey
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:02:34 PM): hey!
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:02:35 PM): how are ya?
HockeyK99 (5:02:40 PM): ok
HockeyK99 (5:02:49 PM): hey what did u need the other night
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:02:57 PM): nothing special.
HockeyK99 (5:03:04 PM): i was over at isaacs
HockeyK99 (5:03:10 PM): and didnt hear the phone
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:03:13 PM): its okay
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:03:15 PM): no biggie.
HockeyK99 (5:03:48 PM): ok i was just wondering y u just called at 900 out of no ware
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:04:09 PM): oh was it nine? hmm i dont even remember
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:04:17 PM): just seein what you were up to...
HockeyK99 (5:04:28 PM): o ok
HockeyK99 (5:04:31 PM): so how have u been
HockeyK99 (5:04:36 PM): fighting off andrew
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:04:40 PM): haha
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:04:59 PM): no, andrew has a girlfriend.. has had for like, well since about the time we broke up.. and they have more sex than anyone ive ever met..so he hardly talks to me..
HockeyK99 (5:05:22 PM): o is she ugly
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:05:33 PM): nah, shes not the cutest thing but she isnt ugly either
HockeyK99 (5:05:45 PM): o well good for him
HockeyK99 (5:06:03 PM): who have u been hanging out with
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:06:09 PM): ummm
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:06:28 PM): ive hung out with kristen and shawn once or twice, and jeff a few times..
HockeyK99 (5:06:42 PM): o ok
HockeyK99 (5:06:59 PM): i talked to jen and she said u were haveing a badweek
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:07:20 PM): umm..yeah..
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:07:24 PM): i got kicked out of my house...
HockeyK99 (5:07:31 PM): what 4
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:07:56 PM): some stupid fight, which ended with him telling me i was holding him back from leaving this house, and going back on the road... and idk it was really stupid.
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:08:03 PM): i have to stay till my birthday though..
HockeyK99 (5:08:24 PM): o well im sorry
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:08:27 PM): it was a huge mess.
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:08:29 PM): but its okay.
HockeyK99 (5:08:32 PM): r u going to ur grandmoms
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:08:43 PM): well yeah, im moving my stuff there.. but ill be staying with kristen...
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:08:47 PM): until i get a car
HockeyK99 (5:08:56 PM): thats cool
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:09:11 PM): yeah
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:09:18 PM): so how have things been w/you? what have YOU been doin?
HockeyK99 (5:09:44 PM): umm we r going to cancun im march
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:10:10 PM): fun stuff
HockeyK99 (5:10:23 PM): and i kinda wrecked my truck but its not bad
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:10:27 PM): good job
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:10:32 PM): how?
HockeyK99 (5:10:35 PM): im getting the hemi for my bday neways
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:10:41 PM): ..spoiled.
HockeyK99 (5:10:54 PM): im buying it so i think not
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:10:56 PM): lol
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:10:58 PM): well w/e
HockeyK99 (5:11:22 PM): u have a new guy yet
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:11:43 PM): nope not really...
HockeyK99 (5:11:49 PM): not really
HockeyK99 (5:11:53 PM): some1 in mind
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:12:07 PM): i havent decided. i dont think that i want someone else right now...
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:12:30 PM): ..what about you?
HockeyK99 (5:13:04 PM): u dont have to get committed u can just date around
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:13:14 PM): doesnt feel right.
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:14:00 PM): are you seeing someone?
HockeyK99 (5:14:09 PM): yes
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:14:21 PM): thats good.
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:14:45 PM): how long?
HockeyK99 (5:15:33 PM): we have been friends for a while but we started likeinf eachother umm a couple of weeks now
HockeyK99 (5:16:11 PM): hey i have to go ill ttyl
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:16:15 PM): sure
mYsUnSeTdRiVe (5:16:16 PM): bye.,
HockeyK99 (5:16:46 PM): bye
HockeyK99 signed off at 5:16:48 PM.
and here we go.. back to step one...
sitting alone and crying in my room.
HOW COULD HE BE DATING SOMEONE FOR A COUPLE OF WEEKS??? we've only been broken up for a couple of weeks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
this leads me to believe that THIS is what ended our relationship- maybe THATS why he wouldnt hang out with me on New Years Eve!!!!!!!!!!! maybe THATS why he didnt want to get back together. because he was seeing this whore!
dont get me wrote, nick means a lot to me... but we are in no way TOGETHER!!!! how could he... omg....
i think im going to be sick.