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so today is Jacob's 3rd anniversary.
i feel kind of..bad... because i had a pretty ok day, nothing too exciting but not bad. and actually- i didnt even realize that it was the 24th, until i looked on my subpro and saw "jacobs anniversary- 0 days"
i feel awful.
but the pain gets better as time goes on. it gets easier, and you tend to think about it less- not that you forget- you are just able to deal with day to day life without it constantly being effected (affected? w/e) by what happened.
im sure that his mom and sister are having such a hard time today. i dont doubt it at all. i think of calling them from time to time, but i havent talked to them since the funeral- it just seems weird to dial that number.
that part, i dont think i will ever get over.
i have tried though... but everytime i pick up the phone i get knots in my stomach and lumps in my throat... it just never seems to work.
RIP BUB!!!!!
i feel kind of..bad... because i had a pretty ok day, nothing too exciting but not bad. and actually- i didnt even realize that it was the 24th, until i looked on my subpro and saw "jacobs anniversary- 0 days"
i feel awful.
but the pain gets better as time goes on. it gets easier, and you tend to think about it less- not that you forget- you are just able to deal with day to day life without it constantly being effected (affected? w/e) by what happened.
im sure that his mom and sister are having such a hard time today. i dont doubt it at all. i think of calling them from time to time, but i havent talked to them since the funeral- it just seems weird to dial that number.
that part, i dont think i will ever get over.
i have tried though... but everytime i pick up the phone i get knots in my stomach and lumps in my throat... it just never seems to work.
RIP BUB!!!!!