What is this feeling? Surely I can't miss the relationship this much...
I'm going by Candyce's and Gabe's tonight which means it's quite possible I'll go by Seth's. But I don't know if I should, because chances are if I go, I'll end up crying. I'm sick of crying now and the last thing I want is to go back to Gabe's n Candyce's and let Gabe see me crying. But I want to see him, he's been back 6 days and I've only talked to him twice and I haven't seen him at all, it feels horrible. I feel horrible. But I know that if I want something to happen I have to make it happen myself. I just don't know if I have the balls to knock on the door.