mistakes we made out west will follow you to sleep they are what make you wake up sweating torment
okay so got home from kansas a couple days ago. Oh god. i had so much fun. i miss it though. It just feels like home there. theres not a lot of places that feel like home. and when you find it and you have to leave...I guess it makes leaving the hardest..i have to do a paper for school and i really dont feel like doing it. Its pretty easy though. Wayne moved. he called tonight but i was sleeping. I think me him and trisha are gonna go catch a movie tomorrow. Ive been really lonely the past two days without having everyone around. I feel like i just dont fit in here anymore. Its weird. like..i dont know. i think im gunna go steal one of my brothers incense though they are new and i want to smell them. I realized a lot about myself while i was on vacation. and i guess thats why i didnt want to come back. i found myself to be happier, and more confident and just all around better. I want to start over. and im just drowning here. I told my mom last night i wanted to move and she understood. I just told her how i want to start over and she gets it i mean who wouldnt get it? It was nice spending the night over my moms last night. i mean minus the fact that i got two hours of sleep. but what are you gonna do? at least tonights friday. Man i cant wait till summer. i just want to be able to do what i want. and im deffinetly spending the whole summer with core. we already planned it out. it was really hard to leave. she started to cry and she hugged me and i cried too. no one understands how close we are. Its nice to have someone like that i dont know. everythings weird. im really confused. im confused about a lot. Ryan (kc) sent me pictures of us and corey and what not they are cute. I like them a lot. ha the first day i got to kansas fuckin the airport lost my bags what the hell right. so then we had to go back to get it that night and i was sick and then i went back to ryans and threw up and he rubbed my head for awhile and i fell asleep and then me and corey went back to her house at like 1030 or so. but i had the time of my life. and now its back to this. I have to get out of here before it kills me completely.