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So I realized with the help of somebody that I'm not neccesarily settling.
And I'm not depressed.
And there is nothing wrong with me.

I'm growing up.
I'm thinking more about things.

And that makes sense.
So I'm not as worried as much anymore.

We're just growing up.
No big thang'

Oh. And even though you drive me crazy and you hang up on me and you are stupid, I still love you.
You made me feel so much better today. It's the little things you do and I dont know if you know that. Today when we were driving you rested your hand on my knee as I told you my worries and you told me not to worry. I told you about americorps and you said they would be stupid not to take me. That there was no way they would not take me and that I'm the perfect person for that. And I dont know if you know how much it meant to hear you say that. You. I needed to hear you say that. And you did. And for that, I love you even more.

And I know you care. Because you dont even realize how many things you say that show it. You try so hard not to show it (and for what reason I still am not sure about) but when you have your guard down, which is anytime we're alone, you say the nicest things. Why cant you be like that all the time?
Oh well.

I have my work cut out of me.
On a lot of things.