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So here I am thinking about my life again. I am happy with it, but then again I am not so happy with it. I just wish that for once I could not be the one who pleases everybody. I get so frustrated with it. But then again if I don't please them then I will have people upset at me. Maybe I don't want to take summer college classes and maybe I didn't want to take college classes right now, but do I say anything about it? No, because I can't stand it when people are upset at me. I don't want to let them down, though. I don't know...I wish school was almost over. I am ready to graduate and get out of high school. It has been fun, but it is time to find out what I really want out of life. Sometimes I realize I am doing what everyone else wants instead of what I want. The "love" life is going okay, I guess. Moving on is easier when you actually start letting them go. All I know is that he will always have this special place in my heart, but things change and people change as we get older. It is all a part of life and I have accepted it. We don't know what is going to happen in the future, but something tells me that it will all work out in the end. "I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter any more, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you." Funny how life is sometimes. Something tells me that this is going to make sense. Something tells me it’s going to take patience. Something tells me that this will all work out in the end. My friends are probably my anchor. Especially Manders. We have become so close this year and I wouldn't trade for anything. We are just so much alike with everything that we go through. She is always there for me and I am always there for her. I love her to death. :]