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I've been so messed up this week. First my Grandpa dies. And I try not to think about it too much, cause I wanted to have fun at Tessa's, and plus I knew he was sick. And Tessa's was a blast, but in the morning I just like, emotionally crashed. Cause I was really sad about my Grandpa, but I think I was bottling it up too much inside, that I just, I don't know. Cause I mean, I miss him, but I missed him anyway cause I hadn't seen him in about a year or two. But it's different cause now he's dead. And when my Mom said she was gonna leave I think I'm subconsiously scared to leave family cause I see how like, Dudley died and stuff. Not that I don't consider Tessa and her family my family aswell..I just, like, I don't know. But I feel so strange right now. And I'm so naucious. And I keep crying for some reason. For different reasons too. Like I wanted to stay at the house cause it was so cute and nice and fun. But I guess this week I've been a little sensitive towards things, and yeah. But at Tessa's we swam for a while, then we got dressed, went to her neighbors who constructed this really cool barn, and then went out to dinner, then eckerds where we got awesome toy cell phones, and then watched Harry Potter and Fruits Basket and good stuff.

Yeah so I guess my Grandma was the same way cause she tried not to worry about it too much either and now she's getting really sad according to my Dad. So I might be going to Florida soon.

I feel so fucking sick. I've been so naucious lately. Ugh what the hell.

Anyway, yeah. I'm sorry to anyone I've been a pain in the ass to lately :/ <3