WOW
Wow, I haven't written in this thing in so long!!! A lot has happened since I last posted...Duh, well, my squads did awesome at States!! We didn't place, but I don't care, they still did great!!! My was so proud!!! It's the craziest thing because so much has happened, but I can think of nothing to say....Well, i think i will talk about Michelle....She is so awesome!! She is a one of a kind absolutely beautiful person all the way around. She makes me so happy!! I talked to her everyday in 3rd period and even when I'm at my lowest she always seems to find a way to bring a smile to the surface. I just hope that i'm not setting myself up...I don't think I am, but we think a like in a lot of things....Well, at least i think we do...We share a lot of related thoughts and i can talk to her about certain "things" that if I were to talk to anyone else about it they'd think i was absolutely insane and put me in a jacket...= ) Not cool. Adam and i are still together....That's good? I think? I dunno....I like being with him but then there are times whenever I'm with some of my other friends, some of my close friends that i've had for, EVER! And I just wish that i was single...Ya know? But there was a day when he came over and it was just like Utopia, it really was, and tator tots were involved...lol...long story...I wrote a pretty rockin' poem but it's not exactly in my reach at this moment so, I'll post it later....Hey hey hey....I changed my LJ...Amber showed me how because the theme thing that i had wouldn't let me do squat! But hey, this is ko, I guess...I like it, all except the heading, too big...I think i'm gonna write...I'm in a "poetic mood" wow, that sounded so snooty...
Maybe you never thought,
I'd see the you that was real.
Too late now, the damage is done,
The pain, too deep to feel.
I trusted you with everything,
And you broke it with your words.
So I took the pieces in my hands,
And soon, all was blurred.
When you said those things to her,
When you whispered in her ear.
Did you think I'd never know,
Did you think I'd never hear?
Well I did, and it killed me,
Faster than anything I'd do.
So now this is my gift,
That I'm creating just for you.
Remember that crystal ball,
With the fairies and dragons inside?
Well, now it's shattered in my hands,
Across my wrist it glides.
Slivers of glass stay in my arm,
As it makes me bleed alone.
Blood dripping now from my fingers,
And nobody's at home.
I trace my veins with the fairies wing,
Then push it through my arm completely.
Never have I felt so free,
No pain quenched quite this sweetly.
Now it's getting dark,
Someone's just come home.
But I don't know who it is,
And I know they're not alone.
My body starts to tingle,
Then they turn me on my back.
I can't make out their outlines now,
Everything's gone black.
All I see is a darkened flood,
All I hear are your lies.
I never thought you could be so dark,
With the bluest, truest eyes.
It was my fault, I let down my guard,
I thought I was finally free.
But I was binded so very tight,
I wish I'd let myself see.
Tell her that you were free,
You held no obligations.
Whisper sweet nothings in her ear,
Disregarding all regulations.
You're happy now and I don't care,
Because numbness took control.
Now I'm gone you son of a bitch,
And I'm lying on burning coal.
Eh, that's, ko, i guess...I like it, i don't think others will, but I do...I have to go!! BYE!!
Maybe you never thought,
I'd see the you that was real.
Too late now, the damage is done,
The pain, too deep to feel.
I trusted you with everything,
And you broke it with your words.
So I took the pieces in my hands,
And soon, all was blurred.
When you said those things to her,
When you whispered in her ear.
Did you think I'd never know,
Did you think I'd never hear?
Well I did, and it killed me,
Faster than anything I'd do.
So now this is my gift,
That I'm creating just for you.
Remember that crystal ball,
With the fairies and dragons inside?
Well, now it's shattered in my hands,
Across my wrist it glides.
Slivers of glass stay in my arm,
As it makes me bleed alone.
Blood dripping now from my fingers,
And nobody's at home.
I trace my veins with the fairies wing,
Then push it through my arm completely.
Never have I felt so free,
No pain quenched quite this sweetly.
Now it's getting dark,
Someone's just come home.
But I don't know who it is,
And I know they're not alone.
My body starts to tingle,
Then they turn me on my back.
I can't make out their outlines now,
Everything's gone black.
All I see is a darkened flood,
All I hear are your lies.
I never thought you could be so dark,
With the bluest, truest eyes.
It was my fault, I let down my guard,
I thought I was finally free.
But I was binded so very tight,
I wish I'd let myself see.
Tell her that you were free,
You held no obligations.
Whisper sweet nothings in her ear,
Disregarding all regulations.
You're happy now and I don't care,
Because numbness took control.
Now I'm gone you son of a bitch,
And I'm lying on burning coal.
Eh, that's, ko, i guess...I like it, i don't think others will, but I do...I have to go!! BYE!!