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[let_it_rainbaby]

i'm still alive
i didn't
die
not that u care oh to much
summer school sucks
i'm "doing hmwk" right now
gotta read a book too
i'm in a hole
and i can't breath
i love him so much
and i hate his mom
even more so
i miss him like crazy
i just wanna hold onto him and never let him go
urh i miss him
i want him too
yup
sure do
gah i love him
yup
sure do
i can't wait till i'm outa here
i hate being here
and at school
and i don't wanna live with my mom
various reasons
or my sister
it's her life and her family i would be corrupting
i just wanna be with *him*
forever and always
i wanna run away
away from all the pain
and the fucked up shit around me
cause i'm right there with it
fucked up past being fucked up
whatever
see my counseler next week
i need to explode my brains out
although i only have one
she'll have an ear full with an over flowing bath tub by the time i'm out of her office
so much stuff is bottled inside of me
and since that why i talk to her
i'll tell her it all
cause when i'm having a good time with friends and such
i don't wanna talk about the bad stuff
cause they're the good stuff
so is he
well, i'm out
gotta read
I love him
and maybe you too