Bored @ work.
We have conversations that only me and her could understand.
The stories/experiences that we have come to share with eachother would be like speaking a different language to the average person. The average person could only pretend to understand.
You have to be on the flip side.
To me, it was like we both were the victims, somehow both in the same exact position (with a few different arrangements of course) but we were both just too blind before to realize that HE should have been the #1 enemy, not eachother.
Even though there is still somewhat of an interest to me remaining in the things they talk about, its not because im infatuated with him as a person like I used to be, Its because I like to see how pathetic of a person he's become.
Im just so glad to see that 2 years has gone by and I can finally say I have 100% completely GROWN.
Instead of 'frontin' and pretending like I have moved on, I can actually sit here and say I TRULY have without lying about it.
My goal for the next month or two?- is get her to do the same. She needs to see the amount of happiness she can gain from taking that path.
I've had new things to worry about, a new siutation on my hands that I've been trying to mend/& rebuild lately. A new situation that has become my past 10 entries on this journal, and that itself, is enough for me to live on.
But I think the best decision I have made so far this year, was chosing to put the 2003- bullshit behind me. I regret not listening to those people that told me to do this on a daily basis, every single day of my junior year. I really just wasnt ready at the time.
It is such a good feeling to finally feel this way now - & even THAT is too much for the average person to comprehend.
peace.
The stories/experiences that we have come to share with eachother would be like speaking a different language to the average person. The average person could only pretend to understand.
You have to be on the flip side.
To me, it was like we both were the victims, somehow both in the same exact position (with a few different arrangements of course) but we were both just too blind before to realize that HE should have been the #1 enemy, not eachother.
Even though there is still somewhat of an interest to me remaining in the things they talk about, its not because im infatuated with him as a person like I used to be, Its because I like to see how pathetic of a person he's become.
Im just so glad to see that 2 years has gone by and I can finally say I have 100% completely GROWN.
Instead of 'frontin' and pretending like I have moved on, I can actually sit here and say I TRULY have without lying about it.
My goal for the next month or two?- is get her to do the same. She needs to see the amount of happiness she can gain from taking that path.
I've had new things to worry about, a new siutation on my hands that I've been trying to mend/& rebuild lately. A new situation that has become my past 10 entries on this journal, and that itself, is enough for me to live on.
But I think the best decision I have made so far this year, was chosing to put the 2003- bullshit behind me. I regret not listening to those people that told me to do this on a daily basis, every single day of my junior year. I really just wasnt ready at the time.
It is such a good feeling to finally feel this way now - & even THAT is too much for the average person to comprehend.
peace.