how...

[let_em_riot]

how did i get here? how the hell? - it seems almost impossible that i am leaving in five days. it seems like yesterday that i was getting on the plane, saying goodbye to my two favorite people in the world! (Nina and Josh) I remember their faces. I remember bursting in to tears when i hugged Nina, knowing I wouldn't see her for a long time and just hoping that she wouldn't forget me. I was in shock at loosing my Josh. I couldn't believe that I was going to have to live without him. I survived for a month. That month was such a hard month. But it was great getting to know the city. Realizing that I actually was living in Paris. Which was just amazing. And then Josh arrived. When he was here it was the happiest I had been since August. Each day I fell more and more in love with him. It was really when Josh got here that I realized that I couldn't stay in Paris. There were so many reasons for my transition but I know that I will be happy teaching. I have always loved it and it has always been something that I have been good at. The days went quickly by and I was so happy. Then Josh left. I was devestated and I'm still not quite the same person without him. But "absence makes the heart grow fonder!" as Lady Cluck says on Robin Hood (I love Disney!) I thought that the month would last forever. But now we are here. It is December 11 and I have 5 days before I leave. I have had an amazing time. Although I've had my sad days I've had my best friend there through it all. My life won't be the same without her. Mikerra and I have had some of the craziest adventures. Yesterday we took a study break and ran to the Opera House for sushi!!! We found a major Parisian monument that we had never seen before. As we were going into the metro we both looked at it and said, "WOW! So that's where that is!" I will miss her sooooo much! There are so many memories that I will miss. Right now it's hard to fathom because I am so excited to be going home, to a house I have never seen; to be seeing my family and Josh. It's amazing how mixed emotions can get. It's tough. Tough love!!!! :)
I have three exams for 2 and a half hours each. Philosophy is tomorrow. Our NGO presentation is Tuesday. And French is wednesday. Then I have one more day of being in Paris. Friday I'm really not going to be doing anything. I will be spending the entire time getting to the airport and such. Crazy.
That's the last 4 months in a nut shell. Wow! It's gone so fast!!!
Well, Joyeux Noel/Felis Navidad/Merry Christmas/Happy Hanukkah/Happy Kwanzaa!!!!
Peace!
xx