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I am so fucking sick of up & downs. One minute I'm numb, the next it won't stop killing me. I feel like I've lost this huge part of me and whenever I see anythng that reminds me of what I no longer have, I feel like crying. I don't know what to do. I mean, its not like I dont have other things I could be thinking about or doing. I am so fucking free now and can do whatever I want. But I've always been the type to want someone to hold me and love me and tell me I mean everything to them. The way ----- did. [I can't even type his name without hurting...] I will miss being loved & being in love. I really will.
I wish moving on was easy.
But I'm eating, drinking and breathing my loss.
I wish moving on was easy.
But I'm eating, drinking and breathing my loss.