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I'm going to start writing this journal the way I write in my real journal. I'm sick of condensing everything into a reader-friendly format. that's not how it should be. so fuck you if you think its too long or whatever.
the end of thanksgiving break is wrapping up.I've done absolutely nothing all week. thank god marina has visited me a few times, it's literally kept me sane. I really don't know what I'd do without her. my fucking SOUL mate and best friend in the entire universe. tomorrow..ahh I really do not want to start the whole early-morning routine again. it drains me and makes me fucking miserable. I literally am unable to feel awake or alert until about 10am. fuck it. but then again, ill be seeing my friends again and be able to get my physics grade caught up so i can GET OUT this weekend. I love them so much. I never thought I'd find a group of friends at st.pete catholic that I like this much and that I care for like family. next week and weekend will be good. the weather is beautiful, my friends are so fucking epic, the beer is cold, and the weed is dank. I have a lot to look forward to.
In other news. I really am done bitching about the grounding and the rules; they are never going to change and whining accomplishes nothing. I've done everything to myself and I must accept the consequences with dignity. I am almost an adult and pissing and moaning about my parents being "mean" in their expectations of me is immature and juvenile. I accept responsibility for my actions. I am in full control of my future. I no longer place blame on my parents for my bad choices and academic laziness.
though their annoying punishments have consumed more than half of my highschool experience. there are some really shitty memories that I'm still a bit spiteful about. I need to let it go.
I feel like I'm growing up, in a certain sense.
the end of thanksgiving break is wrapping up.I've done absolutely nothing all week. thank god marina has visited me a few times, it's literally kept me sane. I really don't know what I'd do without her. my fucking SOUL mate and best friend in the entire universe. tomorrow..ahh I really do not want to start the whole early-morning routine again. it drains me and makes me fucking miserable. I literally am unable to feel awake or alert until about 10am. fuck it. but then again, ill be seeing my friends again and be able to get my physics grade caught up so i can GET OUT this weekend. I love them so much. I never thought I'd find a group of friends at st.pete catholic that I like this much and that I care for like family. next week and weekend will be good. the weather is beautiful, my friends are so fucking epic, the beer is cold, and the weed is dank. I have a lot to look forward to.
In other news. I really am done bitching about the grounding and the rules; they are never going to change and whining accomplishes nothing. I've done everything to myself and I must accept the consequences with dignity. I am almost an adult and pissing and moaning about my parents being "mean" in their expectations of me is immature and juvenile. I accept responsibility for my actions. I am in full control of my future. I no longer place blame on my parents for my bad choices and academic laziness.
though their annoying punishments have consumed more than half of my highschool experience. there are some really shitty memories that I'm still a bit spiteful about. I need to let it go.
I feel like I'm growing up, in a certain sense.