Tell Me What To Do If You Know Everything
It seems like everybody has the fucking answers to everything except me. Everyone knows why I'm doing what I'm doing ("You're afraid to be happy", "You're scared", "Youre confused").
You know what? You dont have any idea of what its like to be me, ok? You all go around in your little lives, blissfully unaware that the person next to you could be suffering internally. Maybe you dont want to know the truth, because if you did, then you'd have to pretend that you cared or wanted to help, when you really didnt.
Do you know how many people have asked me why I'm upset? Not alot. Many just assume that telling me how to feel is going to work. It doesnt work. Just let me work it out. If you could listen, that would be nice, but so few people can listen these days.
Heather: Its nothing personal that I havent contacted you. I promise.
Anna: I'm sorry about the dot. I see that you've signed off tonight so I wont dot you again.
Amy (Lily-Rose): Thanks for the positivity.
Barnes: You've been nothing but kind.
Kat: Thanks for not judging me.
Amy (Johnson): You're sweet.
Enisha: Glad youre happy. Stay strong.
Lina: I emailed you. I still think youre perfect, you know?
Corey: I emailed you.
Morgan: Thanks.
Antonia: Youre a good friend to Lina.
Anthony: Keep your happiness. Its special.
And the person that I've protected... (You know who you are) Youre a snake in the grass. Lay another finger on her I'll make you pay. I see through you. Youre no friend to me and it repulses me that you ever crossed Ethan's path.
Thank you to the people who have taken the time to listen to me and email me and show they care and I'm sorry if I didnt reply. I will forever be indebted to you.
If I've scared you, I apologize. I'm a nice guy but I can have bad days too. I think I'm entitled.
~Ryan
You know what? You dont have any idea of what its like to be me, ok? You all go around in your little lives, blissfully unaware that the person next to you could be suffering internally. Maybe you dont want to know the truth, because if you did, then you'd have to pretend that you cared or wanted to help, when you really didnt.
Do you know how many people have asked me why I'm upset? Not alot. Many just assume that telling me how to feel is going to work. It doesnt work. Just let me work it out. If you could listen, that would be nice, but so few people can listen these days.
Heather: Its nothing personal that I havent contacted you. I promise.
Anna: I'm sorry about the dot. I see that you've signed off tonight so I wont dot you again.
Amy (Lily-Rose): Thanks for the positivity.
Barnes: You've been nothing but kind.
Kat: Thanks for not judging me.
Amy (Johnson): You're sweet.
Enisha: Glad youre happy. Stay strong.
Lina: I emailed you. I still think youre perfect, you know?
Corey: I emailed you.
Morgan: Thanks.
Antonia: Youre a good friend to Lina.
Anthony: Keep your happiness. Its special.
And the person that I've protected... (You know who you are) Youre a snake in the grass. Lay another finger on her I'll make you pay. I see through you. Youre no friend to me and it repulses me that you ever crossed Ethan's path.
Thank you to the people who have taken the time to listen to me and email me and show they care and I'm sorry if I didnt reply. I will forever be indebted to you.
If I've scared you, I apologize. I'm a nice guy but I can have bad days too. I think I'm entitled.
~Ryan