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OMG I'm so happy that finals are over. It was so stressful I thought it would never end. But I have one thing that is worrying me, Rebecca thinks that when I get Abe shod this weekend I'm going to start coming out with her to have jumping lessens with her and Meggy again. The thing is that I don't really want to anymore. It's NOT because I don't like her anymore it's because the last 2 times I went with her I just felt really out of place with her and Meggy. It's like I just dont' blend in with them anymore.They didn't do anything different than they used to but I just don't feel like I belong anymore. It's like they have all this stuff in common and I'm just an outsider. It was kind of like this before but because I was around Rebecca so much it didn't seem like such a big gap but now that I don't see her all that much when I do see her it's like I just have nothing to talk about. That and when I'm in lessons with her she's all like ( well you've been out of jumping for a while so I won't ask that much of you) which is ok but then she pretty much just tell Meggy what to do and dosen't pay any attention to me so I feel like even more of an outsider. Maybe I should just start going again and it will get better. I'm so weird. It's funny how whenever I go dancing I feel really dirty afterwords and feel like I never want to dancing again and then after like 2-3 week I want to go dancing again. I'd love it if I could just make up my mind.