GOOD MORNING CANADA!!!
i can't sleep..due to some dudes from...some country i can't even pronounce..somewhere in eastern europe...anyways they're watching a movie downstairs and i can't sleep if there is any noise, especially quiet noise that is the worst.
tomorrow is going to rain so its going to be a lonely day indoors and i have decided that i will wake up and eat a cheese and tomato sandwh with some fruit and a boiled egg. then i will go up to my room and put on some music and dance around until i get really really sweaty and my heart is beating fast. then i'll go on the internet and chat up you ppl online. after that i have no idea....oh wow my day sounds grand.
anyways dancing in my room reminds me of Hanna and i miss her..where are you Hanna!!?? i think your reading week should be over by now..its been too long for my tastes!
im terribly people sick. i dont miss home..i miss ppl..and i would kill for a nice warm hug from someone familiar. i think i've gotten one hug from a brazilian girl from work..but she hugs everyone. owen has given me a hello hug...hmm but its not the same as a hug with a squeeze at the end from your best friends.
my terrible shy personality is keeping me from being myself and making people think im a weirdo like usual but im cool with that because im kind of just...like...yah my MATES are all in canada and they are awesome so why did i ever leave them type thing..
i feel like my life has come to a sort of fork...in the road..you know what im saying..but its at this fork, but what this fork doesn't realize is it took me a lot of time and money to come all the way to australia, and now this fork is asking me where i want to go from here. i can't believe im ready to take a new direction already. i think i MAY have ADD.
this path is good..i mean i haven't felt like writing and so inspired to write for a year at least, but at the same time i feel quite numb. its a feeling that leaves you kinda stumped. like you are hitting something and bouncing off only to bounce back and hit it again. back and forth. but what? why? where? and when? no not how just when.
but mainly what.
what do i do? what does this mean? what am i trying to tell myself?
did you guys know how even though you go places to see things..generally..and experience things...apart from all that one of the most important things is smell.
smell can make all the difference.
like in barcelona. the smell is very vibrant. it smells like fruit and sea salt and sunshine and the smell of a party starting. always starting never ending. it smells like red wine and the stone brick roads and occasionally piss. it smells like tapas and gelato and its so electric and always exciting and warm. it smells like a place i'd love to live.
sydney smells like fresh flowers in the trees, they have so many different trees and flowers and the scent is usually pretty strong. but apart from that the smell of this city hasn't really exposed itself to me and i dont know if it will. im having trouble even smelling the ocean.
this has never happened to me before. maybe the smell is just too similar to home so i can't tell the difference (besides the flowers)
ok im going to leave it there because the house is finally 99% silent so im going to take advantage. its almost 2 am.
good morning to you all!
love
meegan
tomorrow is going to rain so its going to be a lonely day indoors and i have decided that i will wake up and eat a cheese and tomato sandwh with some fruit and a boiled egg. then i will go up to my room and put on some music and dance around until i get really really sweaty and my heart is beating fast. then i'll go on the internet and chat up you ppl online. after that i have no idea....oh wow my day sounds grand.
anyways dancing in my room reminds me of Hanna and i miss her..where are you Hanna!!?? i think your reading week should be over by now..its been too long for my tastes!
im terribly people sick. i dont miss home..i miss ppl..and i would kill for a nice warm hug from someone familiar. i think i've gotten one hug from a brazilian girl from work..but she hugs everyone. owen has given me a hello hug...hmm but its not the same as a hug with a squeeze at the end from your best friends.
my terrible shy personality is keeping me from being myself and making people think im a weirdo like usual but im cool with that because im kind of just...like...yah my MATES are all in canada and they are awesome so why did i ever leave them type thing..
i feel like my life has come to a sort of fork...in the road..you know what im saying..but its at this fork, but what this fork doesn't realize is it took me a lot of time and money to come all the way to australia, and now this fork is asking me where i want to go from here. i can't believe im ready to take a new direction already. i think i MAY have ADD.
this path is good..i mean i haven't felt like writing and so inspired to write for a year at least, but at the same time i feel quite numb. its a feeling that leaves you kinda stumped. like you are hitting something and bouncing off only to bounce back and hit it again. back and forth. but what? why? where? and when? no not how just when.
but mainly what.
what do i do? what does this mean? what am i trying to tell myself?
did you guys know how even though you go places to see things..generally..and experience things...apart from all that one of the most important things is smell.
smell can make all the difference.
like in barcelona. the smell is very vibrant. it smells like fruit and sea salt and sunshine and the smell of a party starting. always starting never ending. it smells like red wine and the stone brick roads and occasionally piss. it smells like tapas and gelato and its so electric and always exciting and warm. it smells like a place i'd love to live.
sydney smells like fresh flowers in the trees, they have so many different trees and flowers and the scent is usually pretty strong. but apart from that the smell of this city hasn't really exposed itself to me and i dont know if it will. im having trouble even smelling the ocean.
this has never happened to me before. maybe the smell is just too similar to home so i can't tell the difference (besides the flowers)
ok im going to leave it there because the house is finally 99% silent so im going to take advantage. its almost 2 am.
good morning to you all!
love
meegan