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I had a really happy Hallowe'en! Zena put me on the guestlist for the Odd Ball so that I could run over there in my faery princess costume right after I got off work at 10:30pm. I managed to squeeze in two good hours of dancing and see so many friends. So sad that it was the last Odd Ball though. I have spent the past three Hallowe'ens there. The weekend before, I coordinated a dance for the youth that brought it 150 people and I went to the Parade of Lost Souls. I wish that Justin didn't have to work both weekends. It would have been nice to celebrate with him.
I am feeling overwhelmed with school. I put aside my readings over the weekend and now I have three assignments to finish over the next three days. I was feeling so stressed today that I napped for four hours. On top of that, I am trying to learn how to manage my triggers, which my counsellor said will happen with practice and time. It is so difficult, especially when they are affecting the people around me, specifically Justin.
I love Justin. He is amazing. I can see myself being with him for a long time. I am just really afraid of the triggers fucking things up for us. I have so many expectations for myself right now with managing triggers that I feel like I am going to explode. At least I don't have to work next weekend.
I am feeling overwhelmed with school. I put aside my readings over the weekend and now I have three assignments to finish over the next three days. I was feeling so stressed today that I napped for four hours. On top of that, I am trying to learn how to manage my triggers, which my counsellor said will happen with practice and time. It is so difficult, especially when they are affecting the people around me, specifically Justin.
I love Justin. He is amazing. I can see myself being with him for a long time. I am just really afraid of the triggers fucking things up for us. I have so many expectations for myself right now with managing triggers that I feel like I am going to explode. At least I don't have to work next weekend.