Weehoo!
Okay, well. Today I went to school. I looooove Jess. She's the bestest friend I could ever ask for! I wasn't gonna go to school this mornin'. I was just thinkin' too much about the negative things.. ya know. So.. I told her earlier that morning I was gonna go to school.. later she called, I didn't answer. So, she stopped by my house to see if I was goin'/ My mom wasn't really pushin' me to go, 'cause she knows it doens't work. But, I kinda wish she would and I kinda wish se woulnd't cause when she pushes me to do things, I get upset for some odd reason. But, I don't get upset if a freind pushes me. And that's exactly what Jess did! I got ready in two seconds and left! I'm so proud of myself. Haha.
Anyway, I'm a school base, drop in. Nothin' really to do. I didn't go home yeserday 'till 10pm. My mom told not to go anyway, but I didn't wanna go home. Jess and I hung out on the armory steps readin' for awhile.. then we went to her house for a few hours, I left and sat on the armory steps alone in the dark for about an hour, then went home. When I got home, my mom said nothing to me. I'm begining to think she doesn't care anymore. That's how I want it to be though. I want her to care, but she cares TOO much, Ya know? So now, she told me "Do whatever you want, I don't care." Blah. So I am. I mean, as long as I get my work done, why should she care? Eh, I don't know. I had this weird feeling last night that I never had before. It was a weird type depression feel. Like, I didn't wanna go home, but I did, and I was gettin' all sad and scared and stuff.. so Jess made me feel better and fed me and stuff. Hah. Yeah.. same thing this monin'. She payed for me at McDonalds and stayed to OP with me.
Man, I got a lot of work to do for school. I missed like.. 4 days. -sigh-. I'll get it done though. I nevvver wanna go to P.A.S.S though. Then I wouldn't be able to be in my honors classes. Blah. Well, nothing nore to say. Oh! Jess (my best freind) has a live journal now. It's 'yepthatsmejess'. Check it out! =)
Lots of love.
/jess/
Anyway, I'm a school base, drop in. Nothin' really to do. I didn't go home yeserday 'till 10pm. My mom told not to go anyway, but I didn't wanna go home. Jess and I hung out on the armory steps readin' for awhile.. then we went to her house for a few hours, I left and sat on the armory steps alone in the dark for about an hour, then went home. When I got home, my mom said nothing to me. I'm begining to think she doesn't care anymore. That's how I want it to be though. I want her to care, but she cares TOO much, Ya know? So now, she told me "Do whatever you want, I don't care." Blah. So I am. I mean, as long as I get my work done, why should she care? Eh, I don't know. I had this weird feeling last night that I never had before. It was a weird type depression feel. Like, I didn't wanna go home, but I did, and I was gettin' all sad and scared and stuff.. so Jess made me feel better and fed me and stuff. Hah. Yeah.. same thing this monin'. She payed for me at McDonalds and stayed to OP with me.
Man, I got a lot of work to do for school. I missed like.. 4 days. -sigh-. I'll get it done though. I nevvver wanna go to P.A.S.S though. Then I wouldn't be able to be in my honors classes. Blah. Well, nothing nore to say. Oh! Jess (my best freind) has a live journal now. It's 'yepthatsmejess'. Check it out! =)
Lots of love.
/jess/