there are some things about which i might have that rare cry, but then i put the unpleasantness away as swiftly as possible. i wonder if it will only become harder in the future, to continue doing this. is it like filling up a closet of chaos and sadness and everything that doesn't fit in with the self-painted picture of myself and my life? one day i might go to wedge something else in that closet but everything will tumble out and several things will shatter.
i love 'a softer world' and i especially love this comic.
but it's all blurry posted here.. well:
"Unrequited love is a waste of time. Just walk it off. There. I said it."
truer words have never been spoken, mm hmm.
one of my problems is that i'm secretly convinced that love, falling in love, being in love, being loved is an answer to all my problems. it's not. and anyone can tell me that. and sometimes i will catch myself and see how foolish i am. still even jackie says she wouldn't be shocked if In Love i like, braided my hair all the time and wore pretty dresses and went on picnics. and the thought scares her a little bit.
am i a Tom (from 500 days of summer)? what was that line at the beginning of the film about him being convinced he could never be truly happy until he found The One?
oh and another problem is that i'm superficial as hell. a pair of gorgeous eyes and i will overlook flaws left and right. i've really got to stop that.