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I've had this strange feeling today. Well the past couple of days really. It's this feeling of...well it's hard to describe...perhaps a guilt?
I'll set up the scene. So I was walking on campus and the sun was setting. Luck would have it that I was on the north point of campus, the absolute perfect spot to watch the sun sink into the ocean. So I stopped, put on a pretty, little song on my I-Pod, and watched the pink fire blaze. Simple enough. People around me were laughing and talking and the sun burned my eyes a little, everyone was happy.
And then I felt spoiled. Here I stood, in La Jolla, California, going to this University, holding a musical contraption that was worth more than some people's yearly wages--and not just some people, a lot of people--about to drive my car to see the boyfriend and drink our little coffees drinks.
I didn't feel worthy. Some people don't know if they're eating tomorrow. Some don't know if they're alive tomorrow. Why should I of all people be standing here admiring this beautiful thing while life goes perfectly.
This is a really pathetic entry. I want to delete it but I'm too tired. I <3 self-pity.
I'll set up the scene. So I was walking on campus and the sun was setting. Luck would have it that I was on the north point of campus, the absolute perfect spot to watch the sun sink into the ocean. So I stopped, put on a pretty, little song on my I-Pod, and watched the pink fire blaze. Simple enough. People around me were laughing and talking and the sun burned my eyes a little, everyone was happy.
And then I felt spoiled. Here I stood, in La Jolla, California, going to this University, holding a musical contraption that was worth more than some people's yearly wages--and not just some people, a lot of people--about to drive my car to see the boyfriend and drink our little coffees drinks.
I didn't feel worthy. Some people don't know if they're eating tomorrow. Some don't know if they're alive tomorrow. Why should I of all people be standing here admiring this beautiful thing while life goes perfectly.
This is a really pathetic entry. I want to delete it but I'm too tired. I <3 self-pity.