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The wedding was very beautiful. Brian and Emily were very happy. Allen's father was the one who married them. I can't think of a more wonderful blessing for their marriage than to have Jerry Bare perform the ceremony. He is one of the best men I have ever met.
I went to the wedding rehersal with such promise and we rehearsed coming down the isle once and of course I was seated in the first seat in the front row as mother of the groom. However, the next time we went down Lucas told me they changed my seat to the third seat and Brian's stepmother was seated as the mother of the groom. I asked his stepmother, and the wedding director why and they said it was what Brian wanted. I was devastated. I told Brian I was shocked and disappointed and he said he was sorry. I think he was but not sorry enough to change it. I was humiliated and still am. BUT IT IS NOT ABOUT ME.
I knew he was mad at me but I did not know he had replaced me. What do I do with this?
And no I didnt make a scene, I gave in like I always do and end up getiing hurt and disrespected and still look like the bad guy. WHY IS IT OK TO WALK ALL OVER ME BUT I CANT STICK UP FOR MYSELF WITH OUT BEING PERCEIVED AS SELFISH. EVERYONE ELSE IS SELFISH AND HURTFUL AND IT IS GREAT FOR THEM.
WHAT AM I DOING WRONG AND WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE ALL OF THIS. I LOVE MY CHILDREN AND HAVE GIVEN THEM EVERYTHING EVEN WHEN IT WAS NOT IN MY BEST INTEREST, AND THIS IS THE THANKS I GET.
I am just heartbroken.