Im tired of being down
i wish it was next week. this week makes me want to pull my hair out.
i realized that i tired of letting people who dont care about me get me down. ive been going out of my way to try to hold on to friends who wouldnt do the same for me. i keep getting myself hurt and left out in the cold.
im glad for friends what really care. friends that i dont have to feel shitty around. ive been trying to hard to keep all my friends from last year, and ive been looking in all the wrong places. its pretty obvious who really cares. and im thankful for those of you who do.
im giving up on some people. its not the best thing to do, granted, but ive decided that im done pursueing. if they really want to keep up a friendship before we all head out to college, i think that they can make the first move. casue im tired of waiting. some people just dont care about the ones that really love them.
im almost looking forward to next year when i can find out who my true friends are. both in buffalo, and in leaders. when im not in either of them anymore. i dont know who really cares enough to pursue a friendship when its not as easy as it used to be. whos thinks its worth holding on to what we have from my hometown crew? whos gonna remember me in mass when im not a leader anymore? they all might be harsh truths, but id rather know and pick up the remaining pieces rather than try to keep putting all the pieces back in the order it used to be in. i at least know im gonna try. i just hope someone else is willing to try along with me. i guess we'll all see... next year.
i realized that i tired of letting people who dont care about me get me down. ive been going out of my way to try to hold on to friends who wouldnt do the same for me. i keep getting myself hurt and left out in the cold.
im glad for friends what really care. friends that i dont have to feel shitty around. ive been trying to hard to keep all my friends from last year, and ive been looking in all the wrong places. its pretty obvious who really cares. and im thankful for those of you who do.
im giving up on some people. its not the best thing to do, granted, but ive decided that im done pursueing. if they really want to keep up a friendship before we all head out to college, i think that they can make the first move. casue im tired of waiting. some people just dont care about the ones that really love them.
im almost looking forward to next year when i can find out who my true friends are. both in buffalo, and in leaders. when im not in either of them anymore. i dont know who really cares enough to pursue a friendship when its not as easy as it used to be. whos thinks its worth holding on to what we have from my hometown crew? whos gonna remember me in mass when im not a leader anymore? they all might be harsh truths, but id rather know and pick up the remaining pieces rather than try to keep putting all the pieces back in the order it used to be in. i at least know im gonna try. i just hope someone else is willing to try along with me. i guess we'll all see... next year.